Think I've realised I may have PND. Feel a bit freaked out.

[lovelyboysadmum]

I posted on the thread about PND or just feeling tired this morning. I think I'm beginning to realise that most people don't feel like this (or do they? I'm not sure)

DS is 10 months old and I still find it all so hard. Although he's not a dreadful sleeper I haven't had a proper night's sleep since he was born. I find myself in tears quite a lot and feeling down - I'm always 'starting again' to pick myself back up if that makes sense. And it does usually work for a while. My problem is that I just don't know what the parameters are for feeling down, as a new first-time mum - is this how most people feel in the first year? I know other mums but those that I know really well cope fine and the ones that I don't know as well have much harder things to deal with and I wouldn't dream of starting to moan on to them.

I find it hard to sleep and DP and I have to sleep in different rooms. I cry most days - this has got worse recently. I've never had any problems bonding with DS though fortunately; I loved him to bits from the moment I saw him.

I've done the Edinburgh questionnaire and I seem to come out just above the limit, at 12-14ish. I never thought I had PND but the more I read about, now I'm not so sure.

It's all freaking me out a bit, been weeping most of the morning.

Does anyone else have experience of PND?

Hi there

Don't be freaded out but I felt like you did and I finally sought help when my DD was 15 months old! I just thought that it was me not coping with the more challenging aspects of looking after a baby! I felt on the verge of tears most of the time, my stomach was in knots most of the time for no good reason and eventually I started to have panic attacks.

I was diagnosed with PND and PTSD and I am now on citalopram and having counselling. That was 4 months ago and I am starting to feel better now.

I would advise you to speak to your health visitor or GP or even a sympathetic friend who is a mum - it is unbelievably common. I made an appointment with a femaile GP in my practice who was very sympathetic.

Good luck and keep looking at MN. Hopefully someone more knowledgable will be along soon but I didn't want your thread to go unanswered!

Thanks Louise76. I have made an appointment with my GP for next week so hopefully will help to talk it through if nothing else. Glad you are starting to feel better.

very similar to me - my ds wasn't well and didn't sleep through until he was about 18 months old. also it was a bad birth (hospital was awful), which I'm sure didn't help. hope the gp goes well. ask them to check your iron levels and thyroid as well, as they can cause some of the same symptoms, and leave you feeling grotty.

I also felt the same way, why wasn't I overwhelmingly happy with being a Mum? I used to cry, and then cry because I was crying, and felt I shouldn't be because I had my DD.

Hope your GP appointment goes well, and as run4it says get your general health checked over, ask for them to check if necessary.

This is making me think that i might have PND although i have thought this for a while.

I find being a mum utterly exhausting and although i love my baby so much i am never happy i don't seem to enjoy anything anymore :-(.

Lovelyboysadmum i think what you said about 'parameters' is very true because we have nothing to compare this to. Is motherhood meant to be this tiring? I get very anxious in the house all the time and feel trapped a lot of the time anyone else feel like this? Are AD's going to help this feeling though? I just want to get out of here most of the time!!

Hi Sarahpo,

Being a mum can be very tiring and although having pnd and anxiety can make everything seen 100 times worse!

You ay you feel anxious when you are in the house and need to get out? Do you still feel anxious when you are out and about or do you feel better? Why do you think you don't enjoy things anymore? I have no experience of AD'd, but do suffer from anxiety/feeling down at times! Health professionals say Anxiety and Depression come hand in hand. But depending on which one is more dominant AD may not be needed!

What age are you dc?

x x x

Hi Yommy Mommy sorry i feel like i have taken over the thread its not all about me me me although i think being the mother of a baby takes it out of you. DS is now one year old yay! such a milestone. I think when i am alone with him for long periods of time i really get freaked out and i am not too sure why. I think i am going to monitor how i am this week because i seem to spend the day being totally wound up which is no good for anybody. I am starting to enjoy 'going out' with him more because he enjoys it more and he is a lot more interactive now bless 'im.