sleepless in northampton...

[Chuffinknackered]

anyone out there...feeling lonely and sleepless need to chat

I am here a wide awake as have just finished working

hi there...think ui may have chatted to you before about two years ago!
back not sleeping again! not panicking about it this time like i did before but that isn'thelping...just so tired, very run down and have to run a three hour rehearsal tomorrow with the Head playing piano....

its not like i can pretend everything is alright tmw. i have hads four hours sleep in 48 hours and have bags the size of paris hiltons wardrobe under my eyes.

lol at the 2 years ago, life can be very groundhog day.

My body clock is fucked beyond all recgnition so can sympathise. Can you have a lie in.

But 4 hours is not good in 2 days, is it trouble going to sleep or staying asleep.

since jan a bit of both. tonight i haven't been able to drop off...some nights i just sleep really shit and feel crap in the mornng. Vicious cycle...

reh starts at 10 but my three yr old and 5 yr old will be awake at 7 at the latest...

I think I can remember talking to you actually, had a differnt name them didnt you. I still only sleep for a few hours in the week, 4 at most usually between 2 and 3 and then sleep as long as I can at the weekend. Driveds dp nuts. I hate that crap feeling in the morning, nearlty every day I stand in the shower almost sobbing with exhaustion thinking tonight I will sleep.

Is there anyone at home who can get up with them? Can you not leave them in front of my c beebies?

yes...was gremlin then. god i really know the feelin you described. i just hate feeling so crap. I really want to enjoy my kids and am so envious of other mums who can manage their lives so much more effectivekly and not let their stress levels get so high like me.

I bet more of us feel like you than you realise

as for the almost sobbing...i do...

well ijust seem to know very sorted, calm, happy mums. I am a freaking fruitcake. Snd if other mums feel these things what are they doing that I am not that means that I can't slepp...I know I put myself last but it is a difficult pattern to break...

I have just looked back at the other thread, it was a year ago and I was up late because I had been doing school work then as well!

People think I am calm but it is all for show, I think we all have fruitcake moments

you a teacher too?

Yes, did not realise you were a teacher, although you did say you were doing something with the head,

There are lots of stressed fruitcake teachers as well, you are definetly not alone.

yep....yes...3 hour rehearsal and the head wil be playing the piano...like i said, I will find it hard to pretend I am fine and dandy and can cope with everything looking awful and hardly being able to string a coherent sentence together!! lol
Bollocks to it all, eh!

Do you teach music?

going to try to sleep again now...not holding my breath though...think this one is going to be an all-nighter. Quite glad that I went thfrough that bad patch a few years ago...even all nighters don't phase me too hugely....you have just got to acept that is the way things are right now and hoope that they will get better soon i guess....thanks for being an ear tsap. I neede to feel slightly less alone and you ahve been a real mate...thanks x x x x

yes...i do teach music..an you?

night

RE and philosophy.

good to chat.....might resurrect this thread if you don't mind...you know if I am counting sheep pointlessly again...nighty night. x x x x x

gladly.