How do I stop it?

[needmorecoffee]

feel so depressed and self destructive. Have stopped eating again.
I can't cope with knowing that its my fault dd is brain damaged, that its my fault I didn't notice dd1 was unhappy and she ran away. Cant cope with the pain of missing her.

I'm sorry you're feeling shit. Do you have any way of contacting your DD?

why is it your fault iyo?
don't blame yourselfxx

needmorecoffee, how are you?

needmorecoffee its not your fault.how are you?.There must be a way to ease your pain.I have dd of 15 they don't express themselves properly, its not your fault honestlyxx

I know that i should say this isn't OK but really it is. It's your bodies natrual reflex. You'll get through this. I understand you, i can relate to your anxiety although i do not have a runaway dd.

I saw something on youtube that made me cry last week, it made me feel like i belonged to an illness and not ugliness and distress.
You're daughter will come back.

People want you think it's something wrong with you and it's your way of life but it isn't, you know who you are. Just find the strength to focus on your daughter. Food is second to her.

I hope you find her and i'll be hoping and praying for you tonight. All my love. xxx.