Feeling seriously down - sorry to be depressing

[SPARKLER1]

Have posted a few things on this section. Not feeling my best for ages now. Am on ADs anyway as have had PND amongst other things. Been out tonight for a 40th birthday. DDs went to grandparents for a sleep over. Had a phone call from dm to ask me to pick dds up as she had to call out an ambulance for step dad. He has been unwell for years now but was in hospital, yet again, before xmas and we nearly lost him. Doctor gave him six months before he had another really bad turn and may not get better. Dm said to ambulance crew that if things were that bad she wanted him to be at home. Ambulance tried to contact dr but unable to. Said they would got hold of dr to visit him at home to make a decision as to whether admission to hospital would be best or for him to stay home with medication. Still waiting for contact now. I'm home with dds and dh now. Can't sleep as waiting for phone call.
Sorry this is really garbled. I have drunk too much tonight and am really upset. Sorry for bad typos.

Have posted another thread about step dad before xmas - might make more sense as I was sober then. Sorry!

It's going to be a long night. Dh told me to go to bed with him - we had had a beautiful night together up until phone call. Much needed evening for the both of us without chidren. Dh even danced with me and that is most unusual. Isn't it bad? I should be tucked up in bed with him but I am here on MN looking for advice.

Sparkler, sorry to read your post and I'm sorry that I don't have any worthy advice.
I don't really know what to say other than I'm thinking of you and your family.

No news yet.

Sorry my message doesn't make sense does it? Had quite a bit of wine before I got the phone call. Am annoyed with myself now as if I hadn't had a drink I could have been available to drive for dm tonight when she needs me.

I am going to try and get some sleep. Think it will help in the long run. Might get a call in the night and I need to be feeling good myself to help dm.
I'm sorry to post a miserable thread and make you listen to my whinges.

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so sorry you're having a hard time.

Thanks Sally, Bex and Mishap for listening to me. Just needed to get it off my chest. I must make myself go to bed otherwise I will open a bottle of wine and drown my sorrows. Don't want to start getting like that.

I was only saying the other day about how many sad threads have been posted on here recently and here I am....

Message withdrawn

Hugs, Sparkler ...
Go and get some sleep .... {{{{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}

DDs had me up at 7am. Didn't get any phone calls last night so that's a good thing I guess. Want to phone dm to see how things are but she might be asleep after a long night waiting for the gp to turn up. Just have to be patient and wait a bit longer.

PS Sorry about my burble on here last night. I was a bit drunk {blush].

I am trying to find the thread that I posted before christmas about step-dad but can't find it.

Is it this one?

Thanks WWB, that's the one.

Just phoned dm. GP came out at 1.30am. Hours after ambulance had left. They have put him on steroids and recommended that he uses some stuff to steam inhale - not sure what it is. Dm also found out that they should be getting help every other day with a high dependancy nurse visiting at home which they never knew about before. She's going to phone and arrange that tomorrow. Step dad is tired today and going to rest as much as possible.