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Should I up my medication

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Blossomhill · 31/01/2005 21:10

Have suffered with anxiety based depression for as long as I can remember. Anyway since my dd has been born and the stress of dealing with all of the special needs issues my gp put me on ad's last June. I am on Dithiopin 75mg. Went back to see her in December as I was feeling very low and broke down. She asked me to up the dose to 150mg as the dose I was on was to get me started and wasn't a theraputic dosage.
I am so scared to do it incase I am on them for the rest of my life. I know I still need them and don't feel 100% right in myself.
Why am I feeling this way?

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ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:06

Sophie - I have had so many conversations with my gp. I have had different gp's but I just got into such a state thinking that I was honestly (hands on heart) dying of cancer. I knew I couldn't carry on because I had 2 small children and I had to sort it out for them really. I just told her how I felt and she referred me.

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 21:19

Well it started when dd was 2 weeks old and she's 16 months now so I think I've done quite well.

Dr prescribed some Ad's for me but I talked it out with Dh and he made me feel a bit better and I tried to get on without them. Then I saw my HV and she said she did'nt think I had PND and said she was sure I was suffering from anxiety. She then refered me to see someone which did help but I still get the anxiety.

I've got it a bit atm but that's because dh is working away from home and I always get like it when goes away.

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:21

Does it extend to your children as well? I mean the worry of how they are? DD1 has finally been discharged from the hospital (as an outpatient) just b4 christmas and i was pleased at the time but now I worry that I wil have no one for support. Mentally she appears not to have been damaged but health wise she seems to suffer with tiredness and other problems her skull has not fused as it was very swollen when she was ill the sepicimia left her hearing slightly damaged as well, although the audiologist is very hopefull as it appears her body is repairing the damage over time. I know I have alot to be gratefull for the consultant who looked after her has a BF has a daughter 7 who has never walked or talk who caught the same type as my DD at the same age. I have also had some gyno problems and am scared that the abnormal cells that I have will turn into C. Am r sorry that I am talking about myself and can't offer advice

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:24

nbg - I tried so hard to not take ad's I really did. It was just over 6 months ago and I hated the way I was and I was so short tempered with the kids as I also get stressed out a lot too. I am glad I did as I did try herbal remedies and they just weren't enough.

Sophie - I think anyone in your position would feel like you do having been through what you have. Did you feel like it before all of this happened?

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:29

Yes before but to a lesser extent it has got alot worse since I had DD2 (7 months) I think that I worry that she will be ill or that something will happen to me so I can't look after the 3 of them. What herbal remedys did you try and could you use them as well as the ad's? I also am v short tempered with DS and DD1.

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 21:31

I think it's just nice to talk about it and know that your not on your own and other people are going through the same thing.
Don't apologise for going on sophie10.

Did you suffer with anxiety when you had your first child BH?

The reason I ask is that I'm starting to think I might be ready to have another child but I have reservations because of the anxiety.

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 21:35

Sorry sophie10 I did'nt realise you had more than 1 child. Same question to you as well.

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:35

I tried quiet life and valerian. I felt a bit better but they just weren't enough. Mind you it probably doesn't help that I drink far too much wine

NBG - yes I did. It was with ds that I had PNd and was treated with Seroxat. Had the HV visiting weekly to check I was okay. Dd (5 and a half) I didn't have PND but wasn't happy about the pregnancy as ds was only 10 months when I found out and was only just getting over the pnd. Unfortunately dd has a langauge impairment and loads has been going on and I am worried sick about her. my anxieties have now been focused on dd and what's going on

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 21:43

Sorry for all the questions but did you feel like it lifted when your dd was born for a while?

I keep thinking that if I had another child my mind would be so occupied with 2 children that the anxiety would'nt get to me as bad. My other problem is that I really want a ds and feel if I had another dd I would be really disappointed and that would make me unhappy. Sorry if that sounds weird.

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:44

I will sound really mad if I tell you my theory on siblings. DS always worrys about DD1 and gets scared if she is ill, I think there is saftey in numbers if anything happened to me then they would have each other. I have 2 sister and a brother. my older sister (toomanypushchairs you might see her on MN) Is a great support on everything although we have never discussed depression I think that she suffers from a diffrent kind. I think that I hide my anxiety in RL and people think that I cope really well. So as long as you think you will be able to deal with someone else to worry about I think go for it.

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:46

NBG - I am not sure really if it would or wouldn't. Everyone is so different aren't they. I was so busy and although exhausted I didn't really have too much time to think of me although have to say that's when the cancer fear came about. I used to lie in bed at night and just feel shit scared. If it's there, it's there. It's like walking around with a broken leg (a cpn told me this) unless it gets fixed it won't get better. Sorry if that sounds harsh but I found that a really good piece of advice.
With regards to the sex unfortunately that's in the hands of him upstairs, there is a 50% chance that you will/won't. It's a gamble isn't it?

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:48

BH I was drinking a couple of glasses of wine a night until a couple of weeks ago and it seems worse since i've stop. Am sorry about your daughter does she get the right help and support or do you have to fight for it?

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:52

Hi Sophie - that's strange I thought the wine was meant to make it worse.

Thankfully dd gets all of the help and supprt she needs. She is also doing really well. However it's going to be a long road and is going to take more than me wishing everything is going to be okay for it ever to actually be
thanks for asking x

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:54

NBG I r r r wanted a 2nd DS and I got another DD but I bonded really easily probably more so than the other 2.

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 21:56

I think the wine helped because it made me go to sleep rather than lay awake worrying

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 21:59

Yes I find that too sophie. Although the cpn who saw me last month said that the wine made the ad's less effective

sophie10 · 19/02/2005 22:08

Signing out guys wishing you all a good night and day tomorrow, Thanks for listening and i'm sorry I couldn't help you more

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 22:08

My anxiety is that I will harm my dd. Like you BH when I was younger I had this fear of death and when I told my mum that I was feeling down when I had dd the first thing she asked was, was it like what I had when I was younger. Which it definatley is.

I know how you feel, when I get really bad I lay in bed worrying to the point I've really upset my stomach and been poorly for a day.

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 22:10

Sophie - don't keep apologising (I do it all of the time and my mum gets really annoyed with me)
God night it's been nice talking.
NBG - I can remember being scared of death when I was about 10 amd if I think too deeply would get scared just thinking about it now
I often think god in 100 years evryone that I love and know will be gone - how weird and deep is that?????

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 22:10

Yeah think I'm off to cuckoo land as well if I can.

Goodnight to you all.

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 22:11

What happens when you worry about harming your dd?

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 22:11

Sorry didn't see that nbg - good night. I must go and stuff my face with poppadoms Now food always cheers me up

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 22:13

OMG I have the exact same thoughts. I don't know why my own brain scares me sooo much. It's barmy!

Dh has just rung up to check the dates for our holiday which has just cheered me up a bit!

I shall go to bed soon!

ImuststopdrinkingBlossomhill · 19/02/2005 22:14

The mind is a very powerful thing isn't it? Glad you have something nice to look forward to

Newbarnsleygirl · 19/02/2005 22:14

Oh lordy do you really want to listen?

I hate myself for thinking these things, I really do.

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