Should I up my medication

[Blossomhill]

Have suffered with anxiety based depression for as long as I can remember. Anyway since my dd has been born and the stress of dealing with all of the special needs issues my gp put me on ad's last June. I am on Dithiopin 75mg. Went back to see her in December as I was feeling very low and broke down. She asked me to up the dose to 150mg as the dose I was on was to get me started and wasn't a theraputic dosage.
I am so scared to do it incase I am on them for the rest of my life. I know I still need them and don't feel 100% right in myself.
Why am I feeling this way?

Evesmama, Mishi, LMH, Kizzie and Sparkler - thank you so much for your lovely supportive messages. I hvae read them all and there is great advice in there.
I have actually just had an hours sleep (very rare for me) as I have sinusitus and feel awful I usually battle on trying to keep up with everything.
I am seeing gp tomorrow for this infection I have got and promise I will up my dose. Infact the cpn said that there was no point taking my tablets (as the dosage wasn't effective enough) especially as until recently I was also drinking half a bottle of wine a night as well Which I must say i have stopped, although have the odd glass at weekends!

SNAP blossom, my 'abcess' has turned out to be sinusitus too!!!!!!
we can moan together
couldnt even close my right eye last night as i felt a sharp pain in my eyeball>>>or maybe it was dp's way of telling me to stop snoring and poking a pencil in my socket?
glad youve had a bit of sleep

Right I have sorted 2 things today. Will up my dosage and have 6 counselling sessions with the carers centre starting at the end of Feb. They specialise in special needs and disability so hopefully should help me
Now just need to get to the gp for my ab's for my sinus infection

Poor you evesmama - it is so horrible isn't it???

I really hope the increased dose helps improve things for you. I still drink, a glass or two at night and I can go out and get bladdered too! Not that I get much chance to do that now. I think though while you're still down it isn't a good idea to go overboard because alcohol is a depressant.

I hope the counselling helps. I can remember starting mine - it felt like I was opening up a great melting pot of emotions. I had pretended for so long that nothing was wrong. But it really did help and I'm glad I went.

glad you're getting sorted hun
hope you get you ab's before you get worse..i feel a little better today..think it was those co codamol, but headache better, can shut eye , just jaw/mouth pain now..how are you this morning

HI Evesmama and LMH

Well I had a horrendous nights sleep. Doubled the tablets and straightaway my mouth felt really dry and I was buzzing like I was on drugs or something. I tossed and turned all night and didn't get a wink of sleep. So feel shattered today. have my gp appointment for 11.40 which is a right pain as I could do with catching up on some sleep
Sorry to hear about the jaw pain EM You should feel so much better tomorrow as the ab's will really kick in.
Thanks for thinking of me hugs Blossomhillxxx

Blossomhill - ask the gp today about upping the dose gradually rather rather all in one go. it might make the side effects more bearable until your body gets used to the new dose.
Hope appointment goes well.
Kizziex

Well the gp has totally backtracked and said she wants me off of the tablets, although gradually. Thinks I should try Calms instead. Not sure how I feel about it to be honest!

aww blososm thats not fair as she is messing u around..besides the cost of prescriptions...did she say why is it because of reaction or anything?

Mish - thanks. It's because the cpn said I didn't have severe depression, so???

id change docs hun, thye're messing you around and how the hell can they tell 'how' depressed you are..we dont go around bawling in public..so we're ok..think not...id either change to different doc in that surgery or change practices..speak to friends from reccomendations..i find my male doc is much better than any of the female ones? and if calms would help, then why the hell did the put you on ad's in the first place??obviously cutbacks are in place and they dont care who it effects very and at the way they've been with you!

BH
they cant say if u r severly depressed....besides u dont need to be for ADs to be able to benefit you...my gp isnt interested in my mental health so i always get reffered back to psychatrist etc...can u phone community mental health team and ask them if they have a different cpn u could see?

hey hun
how you doing today? wasnt around last night, so thought id pop on now while dd asleep

Hi BH - sorry you have been messed about re medication. what might be behind what your GP's behaviour is a recent change to the treatment guidelines for depression to limit overprescribing of ads - idea being that people should have counselling etc rather than ads as first line of treatment.tho blimmin annoying to start taking ads on a non-therapeutic dose, and then just get taken off them again. agree with mishi that you might find it helpful to see another CPN/psychiatrist to discuss ADS - if the increased dose of dothiepin doesn't suit you, there are plenty of other different more modern ADs that you might tolerate better.

best of luck with the counselling etc

I am all over the place at the moment and think it's all down to mucking about with my tablets.
I am currently taking 1 every other day and I feel so sh*t, back to how I was in the summer.
I just want to curl up into a little box for a couple of days

Anyone have any advice?

Hi IMSDBH I don't have any advice, but am here to chat if you need to I have been suffering from anxiety for a few years now but haven't been brave enough to talk to anyone about it.

Sophie - Hi, thanks for replying That must be so hard dealing with in on your own

It seems I have permantly been scared that something was wrong with me or my DC's. DD1 had bacterial meningitis at 8 mths (shes 3 now) about 6 months later DS (aged 5 at the time) had the virual meningitis things just escalated after that. Feels like a black cloud not anger just scared. Have often thought about talking to the doctor about it.

Do you remember when yours started?

Hi BH and Sophie10

Can I join in?
I suffer with anxiety too although I'm not taking medication, my choice and am battling it on my own. It's not easy though.

Hi Sophie

Well I have always had it since my teens but had pnd after having ds 7 years ago. Has been up and down since and hasn't helped that dd has language difficulties although no firm diagnosis.
It's weird that you should mention worrying about having something wrong with you as i had counselling about 3 years ago as I was convinced I had cancer and would feel so, so sacred about it.
It's not surprising that after everything you feel the way you do. I would say talk to your gp as they can be so helpful

NBG - of course you can join in How are you coping without medication?

I have only just joined MN and it has made feel alot better to have people to talk to when I am feeling low. My DH is not deliberatly unsuppotive he just doesn't understand why I worry so much. NBG have you talk to the doctor? BH how did you start the conversation with yours?