So overwhelmed with parenting two children

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I feel like this quite regularly and it’s awful as I end up feeling so resentful and almost like I dislike them which I don’t but I just get so so fed up and frustrated.

The constant touching: climbing on me and leaning on me and wanting to hold my hand but then walking so so slowly (I don’t mean normal slow child pace but like ridiculously slowly so that I’m just constantly nagging to speed up a bit.)

Endless questions. What is this? A pen. What’s that black thing on the end? It’s what you write with. Yeah but, but, but, mummy, why, why is the pen, why is that, why do you write with it? All this while the other one is wanting their bum wiped and then trying to wash hands and getting soap everywhere and pulling the towel off the rail thirty odd times a day.

I don’t get a second of peace from 6am to 8pm and then I just fall asleep. What a life!

I know I’m being awful but I’m so worn down.

Are you alone? A single parent?

Alone with them yes

Alone today but are you a single parent?

Also find normal kid things really overstimulating to the point of getting to the end of my tether. I have 8yr old twins, and the talking is utterly endless. They talk at me simultaneously all the time and lose their rag if when I ask them to go one at a time (and then still end up talking simultaneously). I must hear ‘Mummy?’ about 300 times a day. One of them spills every drink they are given. Toothpaste everywhere, soap everywhere, sudden inspiration to do complicated and messy activities. One of them has just seriously got into cooking but the mess is unreal and triggers the toddler-like ‘I can do it myself!’ … no, you can’t flambé your steak by yourself, dear.

I’m afraid I have no advice, but I do understand.

Thanks @Didimum . I have that when they are both talking at once at me and just won’t stop unless I get really annoyed and shout at them. Constantly feel like a crap mum!

I think a lot of parents feel this way but feel guilty admitting it. Being needed constantly, touched all day and never getting a moment to yourself can be so draining. It doesn't mean you don't love your children, it means you're exhausted. You need some time where nobody is asking you for anything. Don't be too hard on yourself.

Thanks. I just desperately want my older one to go back to school. I know I should treasure the time but I can’t, I absolutely fucking hate it if I’m honest.

Not sure if it helps but one day you will think what lovely emotionally mature well regulated adult children you have.

Maybe try and use humour and make silly songs up with them for the things they do. My mum had one that went like 'you're a little lady, mmm and that's no maybe' and I hated being called a little lady so as soon as she sung that I'd be like ' don't sing nuffin else' and we went like that.

Hope you’re ok mate. Think you’re really brave to have said this out loud.
well done xx