I suffer with severe depression, I've had a lot of trauma over the years that's caused it.
Sometimes I can control it well and have stable mood periods for months and then I come crashing down usually from something like a change of routine, stress etc.
I do not drink as its a major trigger. I am not on anti depressants as I found they made me a zombie of my former self. I self medicate with private medical cannabis prescription and this ultimately serves me well as I get a good 8-9 hours sleep if I don't I get 3 hours of broken sleep which effects me badly. I tried counselling but the therapist said I needed time to process things before trying again as I kept breaking down.
The problem I have is that when my moods stable I enjoy creative hobbies. It keeps my mind happy and still.
When depression hits I give up on everything and want to get rid of it all. It's constantly yo-yoing.
Had a down fall this week as I came home from being with family who don't live near me and my mood just crashed. Now I want to give everything away again.
Husband is telling me just put it away until I feel better and don't need to look at it for now as I will regret it.
He knows how much I enjoy all my hobbies and how much it helps me mentally.
How do I get over this whole loosing Interest in everything? How do I keep my moods more stable? I'm sick of feeling like a loose canon ready to explode.