It's NYE and it looks like I'll be spending it alone. I am happy with my own company, but I've actually stood up to my abusive ex for once so he has our child and I have the potential to go 'out out' . The person I was meant to spend it with has instead decided they can't let another friend down (their friend) so whilst they're now blowing me out for that friend (who will be home husband and kids also) I am instead gonna be totally alone alone and it doesn't even occur to them that this is upsetting.
I feel like I have various dynamics in my life where I am the forgotten one, the one who's always overlooked and assumed to be okay. It's just expected that I'm always alright but I'm actually fed up and desperately lonely 😔
Just needed to get that off my chest and sending near wishes to anyone else feeling sorry for themselves tonight! X