Cant stop thinking about

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ending things. I dont think I can go on. I have a couple of family members that I'd rather not put them into that group of people who lost someone this way but I dont think I can wait until my mum goes because that's potentially another 30 years.

Oh love. Can you tell us a bit more about why you feel this way? It’s a god awful place to be.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
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I'm so sorry you are feeling this way but please don't do anything stupid, I lost my brother this way in 2018 and it has destroyed mine and my sisters lives. Infact it would have been his birthday today😥 Please reach out to someone, anyone. No problem, however big, is worth losing your life for. I can never bring my brother back but if I can help one other person then I will be happy. Sending love and prayers for you, stay strong. Things can and will get better🩷 xxx

Hello, I'm sad to read you feel this way. Your life does matter. If you think you are going to do something and can't keep yourself safe, call the police and they will help you get the help you need. Once you are able to feel better, you will feel differently 😊