Spiralling and i dont know what to do

[Frieda86]

Just that really. History of depression, anxiety and eating disorders. Awaiting an ASD assessment.
Everything just feels too much. December is stressing me out - there is 1 day where I'm literally expected to be in 3 places at once.
Work is tough at the mo as I'm picking up work for a colleague on long term sick.
My kids are being hard work and I know that they deserve so much better than I'm giving them.
I just dont know where to go for help.

Be ruthless. Hand off what can be done by other people – colleagues/ partner/parents/siblings – and decline anything that isn't either essential or fills you with joy. Make big gaps in your diary so that you have capacity for actual non negotiables or time just for you.

If anyone whinges or guilt trips you, tough shit. No one will die from the lack of your attention (assuming you are not a brain surgeon).