Spinning out

[dontwannadothis]

So I was diagnosed with bipolar 18 years ago when I was 18, for the most part I've accepted the diagnosis- it's been a hard slog getting medication right and I've tried almost every available option. My current meds work for the most part- and by that I mean I'm not suicidal but I'm also not a steady middle ground all of the time.

A few years ago ADHD and autism started getting thrown around, I was always under the impression that it was an additional diagnosis to bipolar.

I had my ADHD on Thursday and they've said it's definitely ADHD, and most likely the bipolar diagnosis is wrong. I'm still waiting for the autism assessment.

Now part of me thinks I should be glad that I've found what's "wrong" with me.... However I'm spinning out massively 😅 I almost feel like my entire life has been a lie which I know sounds dramatic but I'm really struggling with this...

Has anyone been through similar?

There is a really good documentary that was on the BBC called Unmasking my Autism by Christine Mcguinness and I'm sure there was a lady on there who had been misdiagnosed as being bipolar but ended up being diagnosed with autism.

Ohh I'll have to check it out!!

I never thought I'd be so emotional about this but it's absolutely knocked me 😅 I'm also worried about now trying a new combination of meds 🫣