I've been struggling for a year with pain that has got worse, in my ears and down my arms and in my hands. The pain in my arms and hands is constant and never goes away. The pain in my ears comes and goes but I get it every day now. I also have suffered with exhaustion due to the pain. Sometimes i also just feel suddenly really ill and i have to lay down. Recently ive been getting pain in my stomach to the left and ive lost my appetite. Sometimes after eating i feel like i might ne sick. I feel full quickly also. I've been feeling suicidal, which only let up about a week ago, so I guess the antidepressants have started to work now but then today again i felt suicidal and had major rage and wanted to throw myself down the stairs. The doctors can't find any reason for it. I recently had a blood test at a private doctor's and she said it could be my vitamin D levels. However my levels are at 59 and they were at 72 in October which was also after I started getting pain, so I'm not sure it is the cause. I just know something is very wrong. I have 3 kids and just to take them out takes all my energy and causes me a lot of pain. I'm at my wits end and just want to end things, I don't know why I'm posting here but I guess I have nobody else I can or want to tell about this