Wish I had the courage to end it

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That is it.

Want to talk about why you feel this way? Do you have someone you can talk to in person about it?

https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/ help is always available if you need it

Can't talk. That's the problem. Too traumatised. Can't find a way out. I've destroyed everything I held dear. And have been destroyed by family, friends and anyone I cared about. It's not fixable. I'm unwell and have been for a long time. I don't know that I can do this anymore.

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