I suffered horrific abuse from my parents as a child and because of that, I have been struggling with severe depression and PTSD ever since I was a teen. On top of that I am neurodivergent.
I have done everything I am supposed to do, got therapy, gain education so I can get a well paying job, put in so much effort to make friends.. What kept me going was the notion that some day it will get better. I am 30 and it has not gotten better.
I have spent about 3 years of my entire life in employment altogether, I ended up getting fired from every job because they either find me weird or I get a depression episode/burnout. I have no money, no pension, no family (they all sided with my parents and guilt me for not talking to them) and soon I will probably end up homeless as well because benefits do not cover my total rent. I am basically not talking to my friends because I am too ashamed to tell them the truth about my life. Even when I do tell them parts of the truth, they say something insightful like "how can you be depressed when you have a boyfriend?"
Oh and I am in an abusive relationship, but there is no chance I will leave because despite the abuse it is the only decent thing I have in my life. I have been suicidal for months, I contribute nothing to society, I don't think I will ever be well enough to work, believe me I have tried so much, but without working I am just surviving and can't afford nothing worth living for. I just simply can't go on.