I want to die

[Anonymous09877]

I don’t no how to say this but I’ll say how I feel and right it that way then it might make sense I have 6 children there amazing kids I have a wonderful mum and dad but I just want to die but I’m to scared of suicide iv googled loads of ways I can’t bring my self to commit suicide but I wish I could just die I can’t explain how I feel because Ino I shouldn’t feel like this I’m only 34 but I feel I need to just end my life I’m scared really scared I sound so so selfish my poor kids I love them so much but I don’t want to live

Please phone 111. Xx

Please can you get some help, phone your family and tell them.

Is there anyone with you?

🤗🤗🤗

im not too sure what to say to you, but I'm sending hugs & im listening xx

If you call 111, there is now an option to press for mental health issues. They will help you.

Please ring a friend, family member or Samaritans 116 123.

Please please don’t do this. My husband commit suicide 8 weeks ago and my kids and I are going through hell

6 children? Wow, can you tell me about them?

Unless you feel like getting taken to an utter hell hole of a mental health in patient hospital, do not contact any Crisis Teams.

Oh no, I'm so sorry x

It's so good that you could tell someone, but there is real life help available by phoning the numbers above. If you feel that you are in imminent danger, you should call 999.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Hi, I've been where you are. Please listen.

There's nothing more final than death. Once we're gone, we're gone and there's no amount of wishing that will change that. The people who it affects are the ones who suffer. Your children, will forever be without a mum. I've lost mine, I'm 37. I still feel too young to have lost her. It's really hard being without a mum, even as an adult. Look at those faces, you made those little faces! What an achievement! How old are they? Look into their eyes. Can you see a bit of your eyes in there? They're yours, and you are theirs. Forever and ever. Nobody can ever change that. There's unconditional love.

How are you feeling? Has something happened to cause you to feel this way? Would you share with us?
Are you or have you seen your gp? Have you talked to anyone?
There's nothing that can't be sorted in this world. The only thing you can't come back from, is death.
Please talk. It helps x

There is something chemically wrong going on in your brain right now. I don't mean that in a mean way, just literally it is the wrong mix of chemicals in your brain making you think like this - not objective reality.

If you consider the lifelong trauma your suicide would inflict on your six lovely children I'm sure you'll reconsider.

I know when I was feeling as you do it was the thought of the effect of my suicide on my kids that held me steady.

Please call someone in real life, whether it's a friend or the Samaritans. Doesn't really matter who. Just a listening ear.

Wishing you well.

Try this x

I’ve been in your position. I regularly plan my own death but I’m still here!
please call 111 or The Samaritans for support or you can contact your local crisis team but in my experience they aren’t great.
are you home alone? Is there somebody you can call to be with you?

We are all listening and here for you. Your 6 children you have said are amazing and they probably feel the same about you - can you tell us about them all? There is so much help available as others have said 111 mental health crisis, Samaritans, Saneline is open 4.30pm until 10pm each night. Calm is open until midnight if you are experiencing these thoughts and are a wonderful support. +44-0800585858 Please don't struggle alone or make a rash decision. Your lovely children will not want to be without you. Sending you a huge cuddle. 💕 Please take care.

Is it more that you're going through a shit time and you want that over with rather than your life ?

Please ring 111. Please get help.

I am so sorry 💐

Im so scared I can’t ring for help they’ll take my kids of me I love them so much but I feel they deserve better my baby died in 2022 and I no I say I have a wonderful dad I do he’s Amazing i watched him die in aug it’s messed with my head since my dads died I keep gambling and I don’t no why I wake up everyday and wish my baby was here I wish I never seen my dad die my children are the most beautifulst kids reguardless of everything going on they only way to explain it is I feel they only way to stop feeling this is to die iv lay in bed for hours reading threads and I’m when I’m reading these threads I’m crying because there is people wanting to die and I would say please get help but I don’t want help Ino it’s selfish but I need to be honest I wish I could go sleep and that be it I’m sorry to use all for having to read this

It’s so very very hard.
I have been there and it is hell. I’m only here because I couldn’t leave my kids.
Do you have anyone you can confide in? Like a good friend who will listen?
Take it minute by minute until you can take it hour by hour. Just concentrate on what you need to do to keep those six kids safe for the next hour then the next then the next. Keep them fed, keep them clean, get them to school. Rest as much as you can, keep drinking water. If you can’t eat try Jaffa cakes- easy to get into you and keep your sugar levels up. Or bananas.
I managed to get some help. It was hell. Total hell but I just kept going min by min. You can do this, you can.
Don’t leave them, don’t pass on the generational trauma.
Just keep going min by min.
You can do this
You aren’t alone
We do get it
We understand
Don’t leave them

It's all about the subtleties. Theres a huge difference between wishing yourself dead and actually doing anything about it. Tough love is needed here OP. If you call someone then theres a strong chance you'd have a mental health assessment where 2 doctors and a social worker would decide whether to section you or not. You really wouldnt want that.
You're in a great place now as you're in control of your own life. If you get locked up you wont be. Reach out to anyone who can help but not the NHS!

No one takes your kids off you for seeking help. I was at rock bottom and felt very like you. I went to my GP and got help. My life is so much better now. You deserve to be well and happy. Please seek RL help. For you and your children.

@Clamfoo that’s not helpful.
The NHS don’t section anyone who can engage with MH services or who isn’t a danger to themselves or someone else.

I’m so sorry to read this and to hear how you are suffering. As a previous lovely poster said- try to get through this hour by hour and even minute by minute. Do you have friends around you? Anyone you could meet with and just go for a walk and talk tonight?
don’t be afraid to go to the doctor and ask for help. You are having a medical emergency. You are not in a balanced state- this needs help as much as if you had a physical illness. This is not your fault or any criticism. My point of saying this is that things will look very different for you when you’re feeling better.
i would talk to you if you need and if i could help. I hope you can get through this evening and start to feel better. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. You deserve help. Your children deserve a mum who is helped to feel well too