I don’t no how to say this but I’ll say how I feel and right it that way then it might make sense I have 6 children there amazing kids I have a wonderful mum and dad but I just want to die but I’m to scared of suicide iv googled loads of ways I can’t bring my self to commit suicide but I wish I could just die I can’t explain how I feel because Ino I shouldn’t feel like this I’m only 34 but I feel I need to just end my life I’m scared really scared I sound so so selfish my poor kids I love them so much but I don’t want to live