I'm assuming everybody's very well and having the same weather as I am
Unfortunately, amid all this lovely sunshine there is bad news. I have gone a bit manic. Like not in a good way. In a way that you would get if you overused a SAD lamp.
So yesterday and today I was feeling really anxious and I couldn't figure it out. Looked back at my calendar and realised I was almost too cheerful when the sunshine started.
On 30th April I made a note because I made such a massive load of progress on a work project. It was like hyper focusing or something. It was like getting three days work done in one day.
Unfortunately, it's now melted into generalised mania and fidgetiness and anxiety and lavk of focus.
On further thinking, I've realised that we must have had a solid month of sunshine in the past at some point - I know this never happened to me then.
But I was always taking medication. since November 2023, I haven't taken anything.
Now I literally need to figure out how to slow down my system. It's bizarre.
That's not a complaint about sunshine by the way! If anyone has any tips, I'd love to hear them.
I will close the curtains at eight. But some of you here will know that sensation that when it's dark grey outside, you know that it's going to be dark grey before you pull the curtain.
I suspect it's going to be a bit like that - my body knows that it's light and at the moment it's having trouble processing how much of it there is.
I don't actually have blackout curtains anywhere except the bedroom. This didn't happen last year, but last year May was horrendous.
i'm also getting hungry really quickly, which is bad because I'm still trying to lose weight. So my mind and my body are processing everything too fast.