Feeling very low. Experiencing first hand the downfall of society

[worriedhidinginplainsight]

Just feeling a bit hopeless.

Im depressed
I'm scared
I feel worthless
I am about 8 years in to a run of bad things happening
I'm running out of resilience
I am now to old to achieve the things that meant so much to me.
It's so hard receiving comforting words from good people who did achieve the things I didn't.

I feel alone and isolated

I have options to mix with others but things have been so bad for so long that I'm actually embarrassed of my own presence.

I'm certain that if I didn't have my cat I would have ended this by now. Things got bad recently and I contacted a cat foster charity to see if they would take him. I'm not giving him enough attention or playing with him enough. I ended up in a heartbreaking decision because I knew that if I handed him over, it wouldn't be temporary until I feel better. I knew if he went I would be saying goodbye forever, and I couldn't do it. So he is still here with me and he is fine. I'm doing my best to keep him happy. He is literally the closest one I have on this earth.

I feel like a complete and utter failure

Hi @worriedhidinginplainsight I've felt low and despondent at times and anti depressants have pulled me out of it. The world is a mess so I concentrate on what I have control over (how I behave, caring for animals etc) and work to ignore stuff I can't control (wars, atrocities etc).
Hope you get some respite soon.

I know you feel alone right now but many many people know what it’s like to feel crushed and hopeless. The only difference is that they don’t form social groups and go on pub nights so they are less visible. You are walking a path that many are on right now and one that many have already walked. You are definitely not alone.

You have made the sensible choice to reach out here, all you need to do is keep reaching out to other services and meet other people on a similar journey. I would also advise you to say a prayer or two, it’s very comforting when you can’t see how to move forward.

What a beautiful puss cat 🐈‍⬛ I have a dog now but I have owned four cats in my lifetime. I just find it so relaxing when they start purring on your lap.
How have you been today ?