I have tried everything. Nothing works. Just started a new CBT course today and it made me feel so much worse I have cancelled it and going to try counselling (again) instead.
I've had 5 years of bad thing after bad thing happen to me - mainly health things. The kind of stuff you wouldnt believe if it was a plot in a novel. So I'm just waiting for the next bad thing to happen. I get really bad physical symptoms of anxiety like muscle twitches and shaking. This convinces me I have a neurological disorder so the anxiety gets worse. Last month it was leg pain (bone cancer obviously), the month before that it was daily migraines (brain tumour fears). I'm so anxious my body is making up health issues, which then make me more anxious.
I've tried yoga, meditation, breathing exercises, running, walking, cold showers, CBT, counselling etc. Nothing makes a difference. I can't take SSRIs due to a health issue (ironic).
Whenever I tell a counsellor what has happened they are always really shocked about how much I have been through and says its understandable that I'm now anxious. But understanding why I feel like this doesn't take away the feeling of doom that something bad is going to happen to me again. And no one can tell me it isn't.
I just feel so hopeless. I can't live like this for the rest of my life.