I want everything to stop

[alonewithmycat]

Just as the title says.

Severely depressed. Nothing is going right. No help from MH services (discharged). On max dose of antidepressant. Autistic. Disabled. Don't want to be alive. No friends. Unsupportive OH. Stuck.

Not sure why I'm posting just feeling extra alone tonight

Don't really have much to say that will make you feel better but didn't want to read and not comment. I hope you find some support and feel better soon, it's not a great time of year and you are not alone in feeling this way.

OP- sounds very hard.
could you change anti depressants?
Samaritans ? Or online support/therapy?
is there anything that you
can do just to switch the focus from yourself - to distract yourself . Podcast.

Sounds very tough. You have to believe in yourself. Distract yourself tonight, tomorrow is a new day. What could you do tomorrow, are there any mental health organisations to call for support? Or community groups where you could get some company? Wishing you strength

Hi OP, can you tell your OH how low you feel? They may just think you are muddling along.
It’s ok to pause for a while and just concentrate on being - even if just going through the motions.
Please look after yourself, xx