Trying so hard to keep going.

[Greedybilly]

Am off work with severe anxiety and depression. Been on ad's for 20 odd years. Hit an all time low this summer - I seem to have reached another level- no hope for any cure. Just want this awful sad feeling to stop.
Tried to kill myself a couple of weeks ago - feel my kids will be ok without me. Gp and Crisis team been crap and don't have the energy to keep reaching out. Am just feeling like I've come to the end of the road.

Have the odd day where there is a glimmer of light but mostly just darkness and sadness and grief for my life lost to depression.

Don't give up. I felt this way 4 weeks ago and whilst I'm in no way 100% better there's still so much to live for.
Can you ask for a review from your Dr? Can you get a private consultation? Have you family or friends close?

Seeing my gp on fri. Friends been good but they all work/are busy. Who do you mean to see privately? Thanks for replying btw. Glad you are feeling a bit better...

Like have you tried a private Dr like paying for it? That's my next step because the NHS is going down the tubes x

kids are never ever ok without their parents no matter what their age x

@Dawn1331 I wouldn't rule out going private right now.