Anxiety about something that hasn't happened (yet?)

[anxiousatnight]

I struggle with 'what if' anxiety. What if I left the oven on, what if I didn't lock the car etc etc.

This week I went past a speed camera 12 times. On one of the last journeys, I checked my speed and it was slightly over - probably not enough for me to be ticketed, but over none the less and I adjusted my speed accordingly.

Now, I am absolutely paranoid that I might have been over the speed limit on some of the other journeys, that I will rack up 12 points in the space of a week and loose my license. I can't remember what speed I was doing the previous times, and because I can't remember, my anxiety is spiralling.

I should know within a couple of weeks whether I was caught or not, but the anxiety of waiting and running through all the possible outcomes is killing me.

Hello all, coming on to update you.

Feeling much better today, I'd say I'm 90% there. I only got anxious at the time the postman comes today. We have a busy day tomorrow and we won't be home all day so I'm hoping that by the time the weekend is done I will have broken that habit a bit.

Still nothing in the post. I actually found out that a couple of friends both got caught there and had the notice through within 5 days (including the weekend) so hopefully I would have heard something anyway.

Regardless, I can see it for what it is now - something that my anxiety latched onto and blew up until it completely overwhelmed me. It all just looks completely different to me now. I can't understand the things I was writing earlier in the week. The mind is so powerful.

I'm eating again and drinking lots of water. It's hard to sleep but that's mainly because it's hot I think. I'm feeling really tired though this evening so I'm hoping that maybe my adrenaline levels are winding down and I'll sleep well tonight. Have been taking it easy today, even though I'm feeling so much better, because I'm quite aware of how depleted I must be.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You've offered me exactly the support I needed and I can't thank you all enough. I'm looking forward to the sertraline kicking in fully and start whatever talking therapy is available to me.

Thank you

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Im exactly the same. I always worry about my speed+ cameras in the most ridiculous situation you wouldn't believe but thats because I dont want 3points on my licence. After recently attending a SAC ...
But at the same time you worry... you care. That's a good thing just allow yourself to breath and not take it all to seriously unless you get a letter. Use waze app. Alert you of cameras etc. :)