Help!

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I have Emetophobia. Immensely scared of being sick so I restrict my food. I'm trying to get better. I made myself a pasta bake tonight. Pasta, tomato sauce, vegetables and mushrooms with cheese. It was in a glass dish and when I made it i felt a bit nauseous. I have to work myself up to eat so I covered it with a glass lid and left it on the side for about 50/60 mins. Anyway. I ended up eating it but close to the end I sniffed it and it smelt a bit dodgy. Now I'm panicking thinking I've given myself food poisoning. I've been stupidly googling leaving pasta out and my anxiety is through the room. Please if anyone can offer reassurance, I know I probably sound stupid but I am absolutely petrified, crying and feeling so sick. This phobia controls my life so much

1. You'll come to no harm at all leaving a veggie pasta dish out for a short time like that, especially since you covered it. I promise!
2. Have you sought help for your phobia? If it's controlling your life that must be pretty miserable for you.

Thank you for replying. Honestly really means a lot. Google is my worst nightmare, no matter what it says majority of food can cause food poisoning. I've been given anti anxiety medication but 14 month waiting list for CBT therapy 😭 I literally panic leaving the house and I've lost almost 3 stone since feb because I'm too scared to eat. I'm so pathetic. Thank you honestly. I hope you're okay!

Pasta is left out longer than that at buffets, it will be absolutely fine. I'd look into private therapy if that's at all possible for you.