Why do I fluctuate like this- help need to chat

[geraniumsandsunshine]

Im on maternity leave and really really struggling. I seem to be at rock bottom in the morning- im so anxious I feel shaky and often vomit with nerves. I end up going back to bed and sleeping when the baby is asleep. By later afternoon, things seem to improve and I feel OK and have way more energy in the evening. I don't know what to do. Is this some hormone thing. Im being a crap mother and doing nothing because im so debilitated by it all.

So sorry to hear you feel this way OP. How many months are you post partum? Have you had your GP post partum check yet, and if not could you mention it to them? Or mention it to your Health Visitor? Feelings like this can be quite common post partum. Did you suffer with anxiety before baby, or is this something new to you?

For me personally, I can kind of relate to some of what you're describing. I used to have anxious episodes right before bedtime for some reason after having DS - I could never quite figure out why. I was already having CBT for prenatal anxiety, so when I mentioned this to my therapist we were able to work on it together which helped massively. Do you have a service locally where you can self refer for CBT?

Hang in there OP, try to contact your GP or Health Visitor to start a plan on working on this. It does get better 💐

Thank you. I've booked a GP telephone appointment as I'm wondering if post pregnancy has triggered something thyroid related. It's a small thing but at least I've got the ball rolling