I am 5ft 2 blonde with big bust and somehow men end up making me feel uncomfortable to walk past them .
I have this fear and yes it is a fear of walking past a man , men who just stop and stare as I walk past. It happens and has happened lately where I froze on the spot and couldn't move .
I am very shy , not an extrovert at all . Don't like any attention so when I do get it I want to hide or ask them what is their problem ?
Trouble is 4 years ago I was sexually assaulted , didn't know who he was so my world turned upside down and now this is worse than ever . Everything about me has changed . The way I look , dress, no make up. I have changed 100% . I changed my hairstyle and had an undercut and tattooed both arms .
Two nights ago visiting my MIL in hospital , she has terminal cancer , I went to the nurses station to ask a question , when I turned to go there were these two guys with their grandmother waiting for a bed , they just turned stared and didn't divert their eyes , I couldn't move , I froze for what seemed like a minute . I could see them watching me as I walked hurriedly to my MIL and husband .
I understand men and women look at each other but that wasn't just looking !
Am I being paranoid ? I am having therapy incase someone asks .
I just don't and never have understood them , men . Weird thing to say I know .