Anyone else just feel tired of being an adult?

[Honkytonky12]

And just life in general? I'm in my early 40s, boring marriage, two ungrateful teenagers and a shitty job I hate. I am lucky in lots of ways I know as have a roof over my head and a husband who loves me but the truth is I don't know what my purpose in life is anymore or even what I want. I just feel so tired of just surviving, just getting by. It's just so tiring and some days I want to sleep and not wake up because I feel like I have nothing more to do or add.

As I’ve stuck my head my out for the inevitable flaming, OP you mention being tied by teenagers. Are there special needs? Is your DH stepping up?

Sums up what I have been thinking. I'm trying to get my DH to do more but I've always done stuff, it's hard to let go and accept the way he does it may not be how I would. My new mantra is 'it's better done, ignore if it might be better/cheaper/efficient'...pithy 😝

I'm on a relentless treadmill, looking after others. 2 young kids that I'm trying to get to chip in a bit more.
Can't remember the last time anyone even made me a cup of tea.

One does have sen. But it's just that challenging, thankless stage.

@Honkytonky12 It does make me feel a better that many of us feel similar, it makes it less isolating for me. I have an adult daughter (lives at home) with severe learning difficulties and it does add significantly to my mental load.

Yes, I feel the same.
Menopause has hit and it's brutal! Im analysing every aspect of my life right now and it's not the best!

So much to do in the house, no money, teens to deal with, no family close by etc etc m
It's tough .

Yes I totally get you on this. I just want someone else to make the decisions, cook the meals, look after me for once. It's just the same shit different day.

Ye, I am. I think there's a good reason simple pleasures like colouring books (for adults) have become popular in recent years. Give me a quiet room with something simple to entertain me, a cuppa (or even just the room and cuppa) and no shit to shovel.

This is EXACTLY how I feel. I am unbelievably sad about it.

Sorry to hear that @JamesGetIn . It's definitely tough - I want to escape my own head sometimes and wish I could think differently about it all. I've actually just signed up for a CBT course to see if that helps.

I got very close to having ADs prescribed recently but in reality I think we're all being sold a big lie that we CAN be happy and content, and actually maybe it's ok to see things for what they are. I'm just so tired of it all in my head. I'm exhausted by it. It's hard work not to burst into tears all the time. I think it should be ok to think things are shit. I think the pressure of "fixing" myself is too much. Meanwhile I put on a smiley face and reassure my kids that they too can be happy and content and mental health-issue free when really I feel like I'm gaslighting them and just deferring their disappointment. If I'd known how much I would feel their feelings I wouldn't have had kids. The guilt is too much too bear. It's hard, I empathise, good luck with the CBT.