Can't do this anymore

[Olimar]

Things have got too bad, too quickly this time. I'm waiting for a phone call from mental health team. If they don't help me today, I don't think I can survive the weekend. I can't do it anymore, I don't even know what to do.

Hey lovely

Sometimes it gets hard... Really very hard but we need to keep moving on. We need to keep fighting. It's the hardest thing ever and I can't even begin to imagine how you must be feeling but hang in there. You've done the right thing by reaching out to the mental health team. Do you have anyone at all near by who can come over and just sit with you while you wait for the call back?

No one can wait with me. They still haven't phoned and I have to go out at 4pm.

Where are you going at 4

Is there a trigger today has something happened? You’ve done the right thing and you’ve realised there’s an issue that’s a positive. You’ve reached out now all you have to do is get through each minute till they call and get you help. Keep talking

Hi Olimar,

We're really sorry to hear you're feeling this way.

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Sending good wishes, OP.

They phoned but I'm now waiting for someone to phone back. The doctor has increased my sertraline and put me on aripiprazole. Also giving me some diazepam for the weekend.

I have told a lot of people. It doesn't help. They can't do anything to help me.

I'm sorry you're struggling. Sending you hugs. What's been going on in your world? Is anything in particular getting to you?

Had a lot of phone calls now. They are sending another ambulance. It won't help.

Please let them help you

I want them to help me, but nothing they do helps. I don't know what will. Really struggling today with so many thoughts telling me to hurt myself.

I couldn't make it into work again this morning. Waiting for go to phone now. Appointment was booked for 9.30 but it's over an hour late.

@Olimar I'm sorry you're still struggling. How has your day been?

@Notgettingbetter I'm still waiting to speak to the GP. He called when I was on the phone with the mental health team, so I had to ask for him to call back. Don't think its going to happen today now. Also the pharmacy didn't have aripiprazole in stock, so I'm having to wait to start on that. At least I have a new supply of diazepam until then.

Oh what a pain! I'm glad you have the diazepam though. What have you been doing today? Sending you a hug.

I haven't done much except wait for phone calls, that might not happen. I'm still very depressed and have no energy or motivation to do anything. Even when I do try, I get distracted a lot by the bad thoughts I'm having a lot of right now. They have been a bit better today, probably because I haven't left the house and been around people or busy places.

There are a couple of online chats I use when I'm struggling. They've been helpful. My Black Dog and CALM.

Thanks I've used them before. I have a support phone call tonight at 8.30 also. I've just made dinner, which is probably my achievement for today done.

I hope the call was helpful 🙂 Well done for making dinner. I cooked tonight too - I've only done it a handful of times over the past seven or eight months due to severe depression.

I think the dinner helped. Or maybe it's the increased sertraline kicking in. Started to feel so much better last night, laughing at random stuff with DD. Felt like I was talking too much on my phone call too and a bit fidgity so I took zopiclone to get some sleep. Feel the same this morning. Have cleaned the kitchen already and going to do the rest of the house now before this extra energy disappears.

Now someone from the mental health team has just said he is coming to visit me today. I'm suspicious. They don't normally do this. I think they know what's going on.

I'm glad you've been feeling bit better. I hope the visit goes well today.

I'm sorry to hear your struggling. I hope the visit goes well and you can open up about how hard things are right now. It's good to hear the meds are kicking in and I always find trying to eat helps too. Try to have some tea and toast or biscuits during the day.