Can't do this anymore

[Olimar]

Things have got too bad, too quickly this time. I'm waiting for a phone call from mental health team. If they don't help me today, I don't think I can survive the weekend. I can't do it anymore, I don't even know what to do.

The visit was ok. I talked a lot, maybe too much, but I said everything that has been happening. Also showed him how to do a Rubik's cube.

Didn't get to sleep until 1am even though I took zopiclone. Now I'm wide awake again.

So go to hear that the meds are kicking in and that you are talking there’s no such thing as talking too much. Sleep is important and you got a few hours. When I was struggling I used to do the same but then in the afternoon I’d put on some lame tv and nap for an hour or two. Just do what you need to x

By talking too much I mean talking about random things. I was explaining the science about why it was impossible to push your hand through a table. I don't even no why I was talking about that now, but at the time it was fine.

Also I don't need to nap, I'm not tired. This time last week I was sleeping 10 hours at night plus daytime naps on top.

Ah sorry, I get what you mean now

Now the self harm thoughts are back.