I’ve always had a tendency to fixate on things, but over the past few months, I just cannot get a grip of myself.
I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me or if it’s normal to feel like this with a lot going on?
My chest is tight, my breathing is fast and shallow, I feel light headed and sick. It’s panic.
It’s because I’ve just found a lump on my dog. But there’s so much going on I can’t keep up.
At the moment we are having major building work. I’m worried about the mess, I’m panicking about the cost, I am a real money worrier.
We had a water leak in our underground pipes last week. It’s fixed now, but I haven’t had the bill so I can’t ask the insurance if they will cover it and I don’t know how much it will be so that’s looming.
My other dog has also been diagnosed with a mammary tumour last week. She’s booked in for £1200 of surgery, too old to be insured, and I’m so worried for her as she is the last one my mum and I owned together before mum died. Mum died 7 years ago.
My husband is working nights so all the rest is on me. We have three horses and I’m worried about them in the heat as they are all old now.
My job is very stressful and high profile and I’ve finally got the chance to go for a promotion which I’m desperate for but having imposter syndrome about. We are still working from home and I’m lonely. It was a hideous week last week as the team i lead were very stressed with some shock departures.
I haven’t seen my dad since September 2019 because he lives overseas- Covid.
I have seen my sister once since then because of Covid.
I volunteer and am on two club committees. We have a big event in two weeks and it’s going to be more complicated and restricted because of Covid if the 21st date is delayed. Even the thought of all the cooking I need to do for it, when my kitchen is still two inches in brick dust, makes me need to put my head between my knees.
Is it normal to feel out of control? I want to sleep until
It’s all over. I can’t manage anymore.