Health Anxiety - Part 5

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Sorry if someone else was going to do this, I just didn't want to lose you all 😂

@MrsWhites
@argueifnecessary
@tmh88
@Skyliner001
@TheSilentStars
@hildagardecrowe
@BigGreen
@goolies
@iamsodonewith2020
@KAP232
@polkadotpixie

Sorry if I missed anyone!

Thanks @MrsWhites I have a gynae appointment tomorrow and feel so stressed. Feel like she will take one look and say oh dear. Feel sick to my stomach honestly :(

And yep this affects my sex life massively!! Just too preoccupied with all these concerns to ever want to even contemplate sex!

@MrsWhites yep it definitely spoils my self life for am constantly scared he will feel something and also am scared of touching him incase I feel something on him. X

Thank you all, it’s helpful to know it’s not just me! I think like some of you have said I find it hard to get out of my own head, then last night I decided that my boob that I worry about was tingling/numb, I sometimes get heartburn which I feel in that breast and I did have this at the time a little so I think that contributed towards it but you know what it’s like when you get a thought in your head.

Also a few months ago I had a tiny pink line in discharge after sex, a ‘normal’ person probably wouldn’t have even noticed it but now all I can think of during sex is what if it bleeds and that means something!

@Goolies I bet the gyno thinks it’s nothing too but I understand why you want to get it checked. It’s so hard once a worry settles into your mind!

Thanks @MrsWhites. I just want it to stop. One thing ends and the next one is ready and waiting.

@Goolies I know that feeling, it’s like being stuck on a roundabout that you can’t get off! I never get more than a couple of days relief before the next worry comes along!

@MrsWhites @Goolies sometimes I can go a week and then something like a twinge in my breast or a tickle in my throat sets off worries again!

@tmh88 same here, it doesn’t take long. I don’t get how people go years and years sometimes lifetimes without feeling like this. Makes me wonder how deep rooted it must be! Has to stem from somewhere I think I know where it stems from for me but it doesn’t do me any good knowing that as it still continues to happen!

[quote Goolies]@tmh88 same here, it doesn’t take long. I don’t get how people go years and years sometimes lifetimes without feeling like this. Makes me wonder how deep rooted it must be! Has to stem from somewhere I think I know where it stems from for me but it doesn’t do me any good knowing that as it still continues to happen![/quote]
I think some people can just push it all to the back of their minds.

There is also a form of health anxiety which is total avoidance - people won't go near doctors, do screenings or access health info of any kind. Understandably such people wouldn't be on any forums like this.

@HPFA some of us here are like that. I was like that for years, now it takes a lot out of me to make appointments but I do force myself to do it in the end.
@MrsWhites
Yes. Definitely. I used to have one lump on my left side on the ribs that I was really worried about.
How about keeping the house tidy and cooking? The last week was dreadful for me but the more untidy the flat is the more stressed I get

Sorry posted too soon. I also often wonder how much of my character is this anxiety and how much is actually me. I think we have discussed it here briefly already but I have missed holidays and seeing my family because of my fear of flying.
I am currently not working because my DD2 is still small but I feel that going back to work or studying more etc is going to be too much for me. I really want to do an MA but am imagining how stressed I would become and then I do nothing.
I'm having a bad day today because I have felt nauseous for the last couple of days and my friend wanted to see me but I just want to hide under a duvet and not see anybody at all.

@argueifnecessary I totally empathise with that. I’m the same I cancel plans all the time. During good days I make lots of plans but of course those days don’t last and then I think up ways to get out of them.

I feel the same about plans. I’ve arranged to visit a friend next week but I’m already worrying that I might have a new issue and will want to cancel. I try to imagine my friends and family thinking like that and of course they don’t. They don’t live in constant fear of finding a symptom that terrifies them to the extent that they can’t function. Agree @Goolies, it’s usually something deep-rooted. Perhaps we’re just very deep thinkers!

I’m like that with arranging big things like holidays etc I worry about booking them! I like when I have plans such as meeting up with someone, I really don’t have any friends and I think how lonely I am doesn’t help me sometimes

@tmh88 I don’t have good friends, this is what makes me worth so much, if something happened to me who would be keeping an eye on my little boy for me. He’s an only child too so it really worries me

@tmh88
@Goolies

I am so happy we have this forum and we have people that understand what we're going through. I have become more open with my friends and family about these issues too after joining.
I do sometimes feel I would like to get to know you more and have faces to attach to the usernames.

I find it so helpful to come on here and no there are people who understand x

I know what you mean @Goolies I have an only too which is staying that way unfortunately, I would of liked him to have a brother or sister so he always has a friend x

@argueifnecessary I would love to know you all in person too! God help us though as I’m sure it would a night of showing eachother body parts 😂

@Dollsandfoo this thread really helps me too! Massively it’s like a weight lifted off my shoulder when I come on here to chat x

@Goolies & @tmh88 I don't really have any friends in real life so I totally understand how lonely it can be. I think it'd be nice to have friends again as I do miss the ones I had but they all drifted away when I was working constantly and even more so once I had my 2 year old

@argueifnecessary me too! You guys are my lifeline on days like today I’m really struggling. Wish we all lived in the same street lol. But yeah would be nice to put faces to names it can be very isolating dealing with HA

@tmh88 yep same here unfortunately it’s going to stay this way. I feel guilty sometimes for him not having a sibling but it was just circumstances beyond our control.

I hate making plans. Will make loads when I'm having a good day and then end of cancelling them. Probably why I have hardly any friends!!

Had a major meltdown today about having the second AZ jab. I'm absolutely petrified of the blood clot risk. Tried to make an appointment to discuss with the GP but shocker... no available spaces. I'm 29 and reasonably healthy (physically, definitely not mentally), but I'm have massive covid anxiety too. Feeling like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. I'm hoping someone will take pity on me and offer me an alternative second dose but I doubt it!

@whataballbag
I have no idea when we're going to get ours here in Germany but I suspect it will not be AZ. If it makes you feel any better, my best friend (33), my mum (67), mY MIL (64), and
all of my DHs grandparents have had AZ and all fine.
Also, they can treat the bloodclots now

Imagine if we did all live on the same street. We would need a street doctor. Lol

If anyone's interested, we could set up a FB group or something.

@argueifnecessary I’d be interested for sure, Facebook or WhatsApp? I don’t mind either although sometimes I take a break from social media but I’ll take anything!

Yes I'd definitely be in a Facebook group or WhatsApp group x

WhatsApp sounds good to me! I don’t have Facebook or anything x