I’m not sure I can do this anymore

[wombatsandaplant]

I fucking hate everything. I’m getting homicidal voices and thoughts. About family, and about random people.

I don’t have an appointment till next week.

I don’t know what to do.

Hi op.
You can call Samaritans and talk through how you’re feeling. Just talking often helps. 116 123. Someone will pick up and be there to listen.
Really sorry you’re having a tough time right now.
from a stranger

Thanks for replying.

I just can’t phone the Samaritans, I just don’t like talking and I don’t really know how I feel.

Sorry you feel this way. Do you have medication? Might you need a stronger prescription? When you say you don't have an appointment until next week, can you contact your GP tomorrow for an urgent appointment?
Do you live with anyone?
Sorry for all the questions.

Yes I’m on medication and taking it.

I want to change antidepressant, and I think my anti psychotic needs increased.

Gp can’t help, I need to wait for the psychiatrist unfortunately.

Yes I live with my dad, so at least I’m not alone,

Phone the Dr in the morning and tell them it’s urgent. Mental wellness is just as important as physical.

Gosh, that's very hard. Do you think you could try to get a message to your psychiatrist tomorrow morning and be very clear and honest with his team that you feel this is an emergency? That you need a short video call with him/her.
Do you have any other professional support people in your life? Social worker, for example.
Perhaps warn your dad too, so he understands that you feel in crisis.
Please try to use any coping methods you have learned to stay calm until you see someone.

Hi, I know how you feel. I have felt pretty suicidal recently, but the one thing that gets me through is something I learned when battling drug addiction... It is taking things in very small bitesize chunks.

I aks myself, can I get through the next minute? The answer to this is normally yes, then I take the next minute. Gradually I up this to 10 minutes. And hour etc. You don't need to think past that period of time that you are focusing on. Just get through each tiny chunk.

Also can you call the crisis team. Or samaritans (you don't even need to talk, just tell them you need someone to be on the phone with you).

Hugs. You can do this

If you can't talk would you be able to text? You can text 'shout' to 85258 and they will text with you.

How are you doing today OP?
Hope the day has brought you a little light.

I feel a little better at the moment. Hopefully it’ll last.