Is this it ?

[Lovemakesworldgoround]

Hi , not sure if in right place but i feel so down have done for ages now
Keep thinking is this all life is .. work , cook , clean , grow old , shop , work , cook etc again n again every day for rest of our lifetime "(
34 and I dread next 50 years doing this same thing every day ... even before lockdown I felt like I work every day just to afford 1 break a year if lucky from the same routine .

I honestly feel some days whats point cause I don't feel happy most days now. Its not every day some rare days my anxiety ok and I'm fine . But today I can't even manage to go work , keep thinking of Caroline who's 1 year anniversary it is 😪 really think I need to contact my gp now its been going on years but just lately its like was at beginning when was bad