Do you ever want to run away ?

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PND, undergoing treatment . Previously posted about my problems .

Just wondered if anyone ever has the urge to just, run away? I can’t stop thinking about it.

I got the urges, but never acted on it. I drank myself into oblivion instead at the time so ran away from my head in that way.

@FlappyFish wish I could do that , I’d be so up to drinking right now if I had anything in. Got my daughter to look after though ☹️

I did for the first 5 years of child's life.

I now feel it again as child is trans. Devastated for the difficult path she's on. Also feel that 14 years have been a lie.

Yes when I had small babies, much less so now they’re school age. They are just intrusive thoughts, don’t judge yourself for it. I found running helped a bit. Should probably have sought proper help, which it sounds like you are, so well done.

Yes. The way I deal with it is to accept it
As a fantasy and not to act on it

I’m sorry to hear that Chimera it sounds tough, you’ve got through it before though so you know you can again.

Yes, I have PTSD from a rape and he left me with herpes so not like I can even forget it. It’s kicking in majorly now I’m effectively “trapped” in my house with 3 kids and a job and all those emotional and practical needs.

I won’t though and neither will you, the kids come first right? You need to find some things for you, I’ve just re-contacted my psychiatrist to see if she can help me see a way through.

When you’re walking through hell, just keep walking x

Yup all the while . New life somewhere nice

When things get on top of me I do think it would be easier to run away. For some reason when I think of it I always seem to think I'd choose Inverness. No idea why but it always seems my chosen destination.

I did when I had pnd. Ran away to a cafe, had coffee and cake (two rounds!} and sat as long as I could. Then I went home. Poor DH was frantic.

It helped to escape, even for a few hours.

Hope you feel better soon. 💐

Yes I do. I have had mh issues in the past ( thankfully not now though) and yeah sometimes it would be nice to just vanish and start my life over again.

Yes. Very much. It's come and gone since my last years at school.

It's bad just now, but that's at least partly the trapped feeling of lockdown.