This is my last resort - There must be someone out there that can help me!
Haven't been feeling myself for a long time now and have been through 1 hell of a year. Thinking it's some sort of mental health issue, i came here to find out if i could find any answers. TBH i'm very confused with all these abreveasions that everyone is using and don't really understand much.
I'm a mother of 2 and have never suffered with any mental illness in my life until last year when i had my 2nd dd. I was very confused anxious at the time and my doctor put it down to PND. I was put on AD's and within a couple of hours i reacted very badly with them that i ended up in hospital the next morning from having a panic attack put didn't know this at the time as i had never experienced anything like that before.
I was then given more drugs, diazpan and sleeping pills with a different type of AD. I then became like a zombie and was unable to look after my 2 dd. Within 2-3 weeks i had experienced many unpleasant attacks to the point i didn't even remember anything until i had someone crush my chest to bring me round. I honestly thought i was being possessed.
It got to the point where i turned to my family and cried for help - i really was consedering sucide. I then saw a wonderful Consultant at the Priory and he ended my awful nightmare. He took me off all medication and i was back to my old self again and told me that i was suffering from rare side effects from the cocktail of drugs that i was given and that i was never depressed in the first place. He suggested that i may have been suffering from anxiety.
The last year has been tuff with DD2 not feeding well (doc's put it down to reflux) and went through a series of investigation.
DD2 is 1 now and still hardly eats or drinks. But i can't cope with this as it's impossible to feed her and very stressful. I don't get any help from my partner and at my wits end - i'm over weight, my friends have practically dissapeared off the face off the earth and all i seem to do is shout at everyone and am always miserable. Awful things run through my mind, that i'm too embarressed and ashamed to say. I admit that i am very unhappy with every aspect of my life and no matter how hard i try to change things i fail over and over again.
It's nothing like what i went though last year but thinking now am i depressed or suffering from something? Is there anyone out there that can help me or give me some advice.