I have no idea where to go with this.... my DS is almost 5 months old.... since his birth I have had the most horrendous nightmares.
From him Being snatched, to us drowning, me being abducted etc but last night was the worst. I was on a cruise ship and he was "taken to childcare" I was lead to a room for a "photo shoot" with some friends where all I can describe was a pornographic film being "made" it had numerous celebrities in and I wasn't involved but was able to look through a glass window to see what was going on.
In the end someone was so fiercely assaulted (sexually) that he died. I won't Goni to detail as it was really horrific.
I suddenly saw blood and dead bodies everywhere, amongst naked people......
I have no idea what to do with this.... Where the fuck did this come from.... what the hell is in my head....
I used to be a police officer until I left the force for a normal life. I did see many things that would produce this kind of dream reaction but I dealt with that 10years ago.
I don't know what to do..... I'm beside myself..... I have nightmares every night and i dread going to sleep.
I feel broken. Apologies for the graphic detail.