Not depressed or suicidal...more just...meh!

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Not even flat....i guess just feel that life is a load of old bollocks really. Love dd and dp....but work etc is shite. And covid dosn't help.

Yes I know what you mean.

It is shite at times, especially at the moment.

When I was younger I used to feel I had to find someway to cheer up, but now I just feel ok being a bit flat, it's just life. I focus a lot more on cosy than happy these days.

Oh, and I can also have patches of really happy in an otherwise neutral day.

OP this is the exact thread I've been thinking of starting. You've described how I'm feeling you're not alone xx

Honestly I don't get the point of life tbh. I'm not suicidal either and wouldn't kill myself but I still feel like everything is BS and I struggle to motivate myself because I think what's the fucking point

Sorry I don't mean to highjack your thread but just helps to find others feeling similar

Like @boomboomg I could have started this thread today.

I have walked the dog twice to go and get some air and daylight but I just have this very flat feeling.

I've also drank lots of water and eaten well (I normally don't).

I'm sort of waiting for it to pass.

This is very much how I felt at the start of the year and went to talk to my GP. I'd felt like it for close to 18 months before I got the courage to go because I was convinced I'd either be brushed off or given some sort of 'talk to a professional' option- which I didnt want. I didnt want to do mindfulness exercises etc.

GP started me on antidepressants and 6 weeks later upped the dose. I now feel much less meh, tend to enjoy life a bit more and I think if covid hadn't blown up everyone's life so disastrously id be even chirpier.

In a nutshell what I'm saying is dont very afraid to talk to someone, but posting her is definitely a good start!

@terriblyangryattimes was it your first time on meds?

I got prescribed some took one then found out I have another medical condition that causes depression so was advised to stop taking and find out if mood stabilises once my other condition is sorted.

I don't think the other Domitian is sorted and in the meantime I feel like absolute shit. I can't even focus at work and I have a job where I'm responsible for a lot of people which is very hard. Most of the time I honestly want to scream and disappear. I don't even like speaking to or connecting with friends and family at the moment. I see the negative in everyone.

Only person I like being around it my husband but he's losing patience.

I particularly hate the mon-fri. It's sickening at the mo

A year ago today I drove a little boy of seven back to his foster carers after our planned adoption broke down.

I said at the time to my mum "when will I be happy again"

Whilst i can enjoy specific events and times the level of background happiness I had has gone. So, all a bit meh here.

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