Anyone else just trying to stay alive at the moment?

[colouringindoors]

I have cptsd from living with undiagnosed bipolar oh for 10 years, two major horrific crises, ds also with ptsd. Severly slipped disc for last 5/6 weeks pain 24/7 and I am honestly on the edge. Only thing keeping me going (despite 2 dcs who rely on me) is my darling dad. He would be totally totally heartbroken if i took my life, most of all of my lovely family.
So I've googled as am taking a Shitload of drugs at the moment.
My mum unusually for her asked how I was doing tonight. So I replied and said pain was v bad. No reply. Classic. she's no mother.
Like us almost entirely unbearable.

How do u keep going?

colouring Sending you a hug

anyone around? really not good 😪

Hope you are feeling better today @colouringindoors, even one hour at a time to feel better at least thats what I'm telling myself. My mental health is suffering at the moment after a setback and my thoughts and best wishes go to others in a similar position.

thanks *2morroq" sorry to hear youre suffering too. Mine has been crowned by severe constipation caused by codeine i'm on for slipped disc.Must have forgotten ro takel laxative as brain so addled by tonnesof painkillees I'm on

How's everyone feeling? @Colouringindoors..sorry I wasn't around when you were feeling bad. How are you now?

Myself a little brighter at the moment @BooseysMom, how are you and hope @Colouringindoors situation has eased. Yesterday was verbally abused by a road rager cab driver which sent me way down. But was able to resolve a break down in comms with a friend and both felt much better.

Hi booseysmum! thanks I am doing better, helped by oestrogen high time of the month! How are you?

Hi 2moro sorry to hear, being triggered us so awful. My ex triggered me on Sat and has taken a while to recover. Really good to hear about your friend, excellent.

Hoping its just health anxiety, really worried about my health after last 8 weeks and still feel nauseous and chest a bit achy. Might see if 2mg diaz changes anything

Hi, so glad I saw this thread today. I won’t bore you all with my problems but I have severe depression and that coupled with binge eating disorder and a child with a life limiting illness has left me feeling suicidal recently. I didn’t dress myself or the dc today and left them in front of the tv all day because I couldn’t cope with anything else. I just want to go to bed and never get up again. I feel like I need counselling but don’t know if it would help at all?

I hope everyone else is having a good day.

TiedSloth welcome and sending sympathies Sounds like you're in a really tough situation and so sorry to hear about your child. Do you have any support at all from friends or family. I know for me Covid has majorly reduced my support system. Thinking of you.

ps In my experience good counselling is Really helpful.

@TiredSloth I second the opinion that the good counseling is really helpful. Sometimes it helps just to tell someone how you feel.

yes. and to feel less alone with these horrible thoughts

@colouringindoors..A late reply sorry. I'm ok thanks. Just the battle of the menopause coming ever closer! How are you feeling now?

@2morrowanotherday.. I'm ok thanks. Hope things are ok with you?

@TiedSloth.. I'm sorry to hear this. Sending you a hug.x

@BooseysMom thank you for asking. Not the best of days really, down feelings triggered by a judgemental man, a person to be avoided now. All will seem better after sleep. Hope others are coping.

@2morrowanotherday
Ah, a Judgemental Man! I have one of those too! They think everything is made up to annoy them.
Hope you have a better day today x