Bipolar and not coping

[crankyhousewife]

I know we're all in the same boat with social distancing etc but I'm really not coping with it. I feel on the verge of losing it and have been having suicidal thoughts today. I live with my husband and two older teenagers. I just don't think I can get through this.

Are you taking your meds?

Yes.

Ok good. The first thing I do when having a wobble is stop taking my meds which makes things 10x worse

What sort of things ground you? In those times, I’ve come off all social media and it’s made a huge difference to my mental state. Are you focusing on lots of negative things?

I'm just feeling incredibly fed up and the thought of this going on for months is just more than I can bear. If I was to come off social media I'd feel even more isolated so I can't do that.

I’ve deleted my Facebook but kept insta and Reddit. Except I’ve unfollowed everyone apart from celebrities I admire on insta, and on reddit I only follow pages that me me smile. It really am has been such a huge boost to my mental health. Friends that care about me and who I care about can contact me via WhatsApp or messenger. I found that skimming through Facebook and seeing everyone’s drama, the fake news, that hysteria was making my mental health very low again.

Thank you. It's only really Facebook that I use.

I'm really not coping. I have no-one I can talk to and even my usual online friends aren't around.

Are you able to go for a walk? (I know it's easier said than done)

I am trying to get out for a walk most days.

What part of social distancing are you struggling with I know my kids are different ages but I've found doing one fun activity a day such as play monopoly rent a film really helps lift my mood. Just shutting my brain off from the world and having some fun with family could you maybe try that?

Hope you're ok op.

I feel the same