Can't cope

[fluffyblackcloud]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post.

I'm really struggling to cope with my life/children - children take up my whole life so not sure where the line is as in can not cope with life generally or just the responsibility?

I have three, 10, 1 and three months. I spend most of the day just weeping and I feel so sorry for them. I go to groups daily which helps but the fact it's half term
Means a lot of them aren't on so we are stuck with nothing to do. They cry incessantly and I just keep thinking I actually don't want to be here anymore.

I'm seeing a therapist and also waiting for an assessment with a psychiatrist but how do I cope in the mean time? I just want practical ways to cope. I do my best in terms of each meal, take them to soft play. Groups. Try and play and of course ensure they are clean and engaged with. But I just feel I'm failing. I'd honestly kill myself if it didn't mean leaving them behind to a life of pain because of it

Thanks @NickyLou8. I wish I could message hv but I know it'd set a chain in motion and I'm not ready for it

I'm glad you're looking to the future OP. But remember, you don't have to do it all on your own. In fact, you'll achieve more if you allow people to help. And it doesn't all have to change now. Your health and well-being are the first priorities, then you'll be strong enough to tackle your relationship.

Take one day at a time. But always remember that your HV will help you in whatever way she can. And she won't be taking your children away. She's just a phone call away.

Have a lovely time with your friend tomorrow. And look forward to getting back into the school and baby groups routine next week.

Thanks.

This evening is awful. Boyfriend was meant to drive my eldest to my dads because they are going to Manchester for the weekend. But now he said traffic is too bad so he won’t.

sorry to hear you are struggling op. Your baby is gorgeous.

He's the little light of my life

Whatever you do don't think this won't pass.

It will.

I promise.

Want to pm me? I'll listen gladly x

Last night I went up to bed crying at half 7 and he came up and said it was like "going out with jane*" (his aunt with learning difficulties. Then laughed a bitter laugh and went downstairs. That's unforgivable

It would be better for you and the children if you left him.

He is abusing you fluffy and you need to leave him. I bet you will start feeling better as soon as he is gone.

To be fair to him, it is difficult living with people depression/mental health issues, and by going to bed at 7.30 he probably feals your avoiding him and this will push a wedge between you. (My husband has had depression he now has other health issues but there a lot easier to deal with.).

You should use this post as a reminder that people do care, even strangers.
Everything you've shared is so brave of you and although i understand it can sometimes be easier to tell strangers what you've said, make sure your family and friends know them too. Your family may be far away in distance but they can always be one call or text away, the best way they'll help is if they know everything too.

You are a good Mother, your concern for your children is obvious. Right now you need help, we all do at some point in our lives.

Any update on op? Xx

OP I relate so much to your posts

Hi

I've just RTFT and OP I'm very concerned about you :(

Please do PM me if you need another person to lean on - I will offer myself quite happily to help you through this.

But more than anything let us know how you are doing Xxx