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Does anyone else always cry on their birthday?

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:09

I don't understand it, it always happens, every single year. Even if I have really nice cards and presents, I just get this awful paranoid feeling that no one really means it and it leaves me miserable and in tears. I look forward to the day, and by the end of it I never want to have another.

Is there anyone out there who is like this? It sounds so childish. Wish I knew why I get like it.

Almost feels like I'm angry with people. For what though??!

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:11

Btw I don't show anyone I feel like this, just when everyone has gone and it's just me and the kids, I feel so horrible.

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Mhamai · 02/09/2007 16:11

I'll be forty on Tuesday, hasn't happened yet but may do for this one because it's the big 40!

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:11
Smile
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Mhamai · 02/09/2007 16:12

Was it your own birthday recently?

hazygirl · 02/09/2007 16:13

i often do they can be let downs, last year my son got me tickets to see robbie williams,cried happy tears, fantastic.is it your birthday this week

IdrisTheDragon · 02/09/2007 16:13

I think I understand a bit of how you feel - it's my birthday next Saturday and already I feel like I need to prepare myself for being disappointed.

I think I'd like the "perfect" birthday but know deep down it's never going to happen.

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:13

Today...but please don't say those two words! It'll set me off again!!!

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DumbledoresGirl · 02/09/2007 16:15

My mother used to tell me you were not allowed to cry on your birthday as it would bring you a year of bad luck. I must admit, I have cried on many birthdays but not really for the reasons you gave. I haven't cried for ages on my birthday as I have learnt to lower my expectation of the day (in fact to have no expectation of it at all).

Do you feel this insecure all the year round?

hazygirl · 02/09/2007 16:15

have a lovely day another virgo i am on friday

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:15

Idris were you let down as a little girl? I can't remember being, just a pervasive sense of not being 'part' of my family. Birthdays seemed to make it more poignant I guess?

Hi Hazy x

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skidaddle · 02/09/2007 16:16

flightattendant - yes I am a bit like this and always have been - hate having any fuss but then feel unloved when no-one fusses . Just knowing to expect it makes it a bit better though. Happy non-birthday for tomorrow (and the next 364 days)!!

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:18

DDG I think I need to work on that. But I've tried to expect nothing, for instance I used to go for a long walk early in the morning so nobody could seeme before they went to work...that was when I was about 17...told them not to get me presents etc. but they still did.

I am pretty insecure and depressed sort of person, but oh my, b'days tip me over the edge for some reason!

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hazygirl · 02/09/2007 16:18

hi birthdays arent the same anymore ,i just love everyone elses, did you get some nice pressies, sometimes its just nice been with the family isnt it

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:19

Thanks all for being so sweet and replying. feel a bit better now, MN being my spiritual family I suppose!

All us virgos! Golly I hardly know any IRL!

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Pinkchampagne · 02/09/2007 16:19

I cried last year because H & myself had just separated, and my parents had taken him out the day before & bought him a £700 watch!

Don't generally cry on my birthday, but the thought of turning 35 next month is making me want to cry!

Mhamai · 02/09/2007 16:20

Aw erm ok, how about congrats today that marks the day you were born? Any better? Seriously though and don't ask me why, its just a hunch but did you have a birthday especially from childhood that was a let down? Something that could have in your adult ind be quite trivial now but wasn't then and subconcsiously it hasn't gone away, therefore having this effect on you every year?

DumbledoresGirl · 02/09/2007 16:21

obviously, you are too late for this year, but next year, could you try going away over your birthday? My birthday is New Year's Eve so it is easier for me, but I have found being away from home and doing different things on my birthday is a great way of enjoying the day for something other than the fact that it is your birthday iyswim.

Mercy · 02/09/2007 16:21

my dh gets low and quite grumpy on his birthday (Christmas too actually). I always thought it was because he was missing his family (they are all in NZ) but we have just spent a week's holiday with his parents here - adn he was still moody for part of the day even though we all had a great time.

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:22

Mum got me a lovely changing bag I wanted. And a bird feeder.

Best friend has got me something, is on its way...she's feeling really sick cos she's pregnant but still tried hard to cos she's wonderful

Are you planning anything Hazy? I know it's a sad time at the moment for you.

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hazygirl · 02/09/2007 16:24

as for birthdays now jayden 18th my youngest gd 3 on 14th my bil on 6th ,my sister on 19th and gd due any day ,so expensive

Mercy · 02/09/2007 16:24

FA- dh and I are both Virgos too!

As is my FIL, my 2 SILs, dh's nephew etc etc!

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flightattendant · 02/09/2007 16:25

I'll have to go and write it all down. See if analysis comes up with a reason.
I'm usually good at figuring my weird feelings out but not this one.

It has me flummoxed. gotta love that word

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hazygirl · 02/09/2007 16:27

im not planning anything ,spend the day with family, were having a party next saturday for 3 yr old, and promised my daughter we will have a gathering on 18th ,getting helium for balloons to go to him , it is shit at moment

Mhamai · 02/09/2007 16:27

Although ine is on Tuesday, I'm having a party booked a room etc for fri, so will raise a glass for all us birthday girls! I never had an 18th 21st debs marriage, so I wanted to mark this one, just hope people turn up and I'm not left snivelling in a corner with a bottle of champerws and a straw otherwise I'll definatly be crying!!!!

nutcracker · 02/09/2007 16:27

I do, although only in last few years.