I'm just in massive need of a hand hold at the moment.
I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression, been on medication for the past year or so which has taken the edge off and I experience less suicidal thoughts than I did, however I still experience swings of ups and downs.
I just feel really low at the moment, arguing with myself inside my head. Trying to get out of the fog but can't seem to make any real progress. I'm at work at the moment trying to focus on stuff that really needs to be done but my mind keeps wandering off to just complete blankness.
I've tried my normal calming / distraction techniques but I just feel like nothing is helping. I know I need to pull myself together and get on with it, but all I really want to do is shut myself away, scream and cry!
There isn't anyone around really who I can talk to, doesn't help that I can't put how I am feeling into words. The best way I can describe it is as though there is a dark cloud fogging up my head.
I guess I'm just posting for company / to not feel quite so alone.