I've been on 225mg of venlafaxine for 9 years and have not had any quality of life. Two days ago I took two by mistake and have felt the most calm, rational and motivated for 20 years of having BPD. I have cleaned the house, been a present parent and smiled benignly at very muddy spaniels.
I like this me, but can I approach my doctor and ask to be medicated beyond reason and enjoy life finally or accept I resume the recommended maximum dose? I'll miss this state of mind but aware it could be a form of high.