I've been on the waiting list for NHS therapy since the start of the year (anxiety, depression). I've updated the stupid patient portal every month to say yes, still anxious and depressed. I got a letter about a self esteem course in August that said I would get a phone call but nobody called.
So this month I decided to not bother, nothing was going to happen. And then I got a phonecall saying I was at the top of the list, and could have therapy once a week at 12.30. I panicked about work and childcare so turned them down and said discharge me. I'm a fucking idiot and now I want to hide under a duvet and cry.