I feel suicidal all the time

[wombatsandaplant]

Thought I’d start a thread here as I like to have somewhere to write down a few things and this way is easiest.

I had a thread running on another forum, but they removed it because it was inappropriate for a forum. All it was was a support thread but oh well. Clearly mental health issues are inappropriate for public.

Anyways, I have a lot of input from mental health services, so on that front I’m good. I just feel fucking terrible all the time though. I always have my suicide plan up to date and ready to go. I have so many attempts it’s ridiculous. I have psychosis and severe depression, anxiety, ocd.

Today I feel awful, I’ve had a three hour nap, and I’ve been in bed all day. I just can’t see it getting any better, things just keep getting worse.

I’m glad your nap helped.
Is there anything even a little helpful when you are awake?

I feel so alone and lonely. I feel like no one cares and that no one wants to chat with me, I hate it. I just feel so awful, I can’t stop crying.

Many people care. I care.
Did you try to chat with someone in person or online and it didn’t go well?
Sometimes people are busy, or shy, or are dealing with problems.