Thought I’d start a thread here as I like to have somewhere to write down a few things and this way is easiest.
I had a thread running on another forum, but they removed it because it was inappropriate for a forum. All it was was a support thread but oh well. Clearly mental health issues are inappropriate for public.
Anyways, I have a lot of input from mental health services, so on that front I’m good. I just feel fucking terrible all the time though. I always have my suicide plan up to date and ready to go. I have so many attempts it’s ridiculous. I have psychosis and severe depression, anxiety, ocd.
Today I feel awful, I’ve had a three hour nap, and I’ve been in bed all day. I just can’t see it getting any better, things just keep getting worse.