would anyone care if i wasn't here any more?

[allhopeisgone]

I don't think they would. I don't want to be here. I'm alone & can't see a future

I swear to you, someone would care. I don't know anything about you or what your family and friends situation is, but I can tell you that you are important, you are worthwhile, and I want you to survive. No one can see the future - what if yours turns out to be really quite good? Or just tolerable, with a few moments of happiness?

Is there anyone in real life you can speak to? Can you call the Samaritans?

Fully agree with what @Flutter said. You are worthwhile and important. Please call someone to talk. If you are in the UK Samaritans can help.

Yes people care.

As soon as I read your post, I cared.

Call Samaritans, reach out

I know I don't know you but I care, as do the other people who have responded. Please try to get some help. As mentioned Samaritans is a great place to start

I care too OP. You matter. x

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

All the best and we hope things look a lot brighter for you really soon.

As all pps have said, I care, I don't know you, but you matter!

I care too - please take a deep breath and keep talking, to us, to the Samaritans (they also have a text service which I've found really helpful in the past at my lowest points) or someone in real life xxx

OP, you've reached out and posted on Mumsnet, asking for our thoughts. That's really positive. It means you're open to discussing what's you're going through right now. Please speak with someone. I went to my GP when I was afraid I was going to do something final to end my pain, after years and years of feeling I didn't matter enough to bother a doctor about the way I felt. I wrote a list of things that I wanted to say but couldn't face saying out loud. The GP helped me immediately - her support changed (saved?) my life and put me on an even keel so that I could gradually start to make improvements.

You matter.

I care.

Take a big deep breath, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. You matter. X

I can't talk. how do you text the Samaritans?

OP, I care. I felt this way too not long ago, it does get better. Good and bad days. Please know that you won't always feel like this. As PP have said, you do matter.

They're not advertising the text number at the moment because they can't respond quickly to everyone. You could email the address FlissMumsnet gave: [email protected] - they say they try to respond within 24 hours.

I've emailed. Thank you

Another person here for you. X

I truly care. I have felt this way too. Don't give up. I still get this feeling sometimes but I know people do care.

I care x

I promise you, if you can just hold on things will get easier. It won’t always be this bad. I promise.

I find distraction from racing thoughts makes a huge difference to my anxiety - here is a grounding technique it's worth trying in case it helps.

Challenge your brain to calmly think of the things on the list and if you feel a little less anxious then repeat it - it helps me sometimes click out of the cycle of everything becoming overwhelming.

I think this is because it brings me out of my brain and back into the real world around me. I hope it helps a little maybe xx

Lots of people care!!! And you will too in time with the right help. I'm not you but I believe I've been in your position and I promise things can change!
You are loved!!!
X

OP I can tell you as a mum, I carried my baby at great expense to my health in order to give him life, and I’d be devastated if he didn’t want it any more. You’re someone’s baby and she wanted you to have a life. Depression is the thief of logic and reality - no matter what it feels like now, you can and will feel better. Please talk to someone and don’t take permanent action to resolve a temporary problem.

Hope you’re feeling better today OP and the Samaritans have replied to you x

no reply from them yet but I'm still here.

Hope you can get the help you need.

Thinking of you @allhopeisgone and hoping today is a little better for you x

People will and do care. Very much so.