would anyone care if i wasn't here any more?

[allhopeisgone]

I don't think they would. I don't want to be here. I'm alone & can't see a future

I care op. I texted the Samaritans once but it was a very very long time for them to reply

They replied but felt like a standard response. It might be better to try & talk to someone but not sure I can just now. I have no one irl I can talk to. I'm just going through the motions

Try calling them again.

Can you go out for a walk? Walking is good for getting a bit of headspace imo

It might be better to try & talk to someone but not sure I can just now.

You can OP, be strong here. Give yourself the help you need. Please speak to someone.

I'm so sorry to hear you feel this way.

I know lots of previous posters have suggested this but have you tried the Samaritans?

I hope you feel better soon

How are you doing OP?

Still clinging on. I did get an email reply from the Samaritans but I think I need to talk to them. Just can't bring myself to make the call. I'll just cry & be unable to explain myself & what's the point in that? I've upped my ad's until i can get an appointment with my GP.

Sometimes you need a good cry, so even if you call them and just do that, it will help, promise my love!! Xxx

Samaritans is worth a try op. If you phone and find you can't speak it doesn't matter, or you may find it easier than you think.

I don't know the right thing to say but I wanted to say something.
You do matter.
Be your own best friend and look after yourself. Have a good cry and give yourself a cuddle.
Is there one nice thing you could do right now for yourself?
Xxx

Samaritans are definitely worth speaking to, and they are used to ppl just crying, so don't let that stop you calling them. They are a 'listening ear' and can be really helpful.

Its ok to call them and just cry. And you may find that when you've had a good cry, you may be able to speak then. Give them a call and see.
Hang on in there, you DO matter and you never know how things may improve in the future.

DogHairEverywhere said exactly what I was thinking. You may need to get that crying out of your system so you can settle down and start speaking. It's hard to start that conversation but can be a huge relief, which in itself brings tears. And the person you speak to will be used to it.

Really good idea about seeing the GP too. I'm glad you're taking these steps and at least thinking about speaking with someone. We all want you to be okay.

Please keep trying with the Samaritans and messaging here in the meantime. As a previous poster says, the Samaritans are used to people crying - it's normal to cry when you feel sad.

Re: GP - please tell the receptionist how you feel. They often fast track appointments/allocate a same day urgent one. If they can't do that, ask for the GP to call you at home asap.

You are not alone - everyone here is with you.

I used to volunteer for child line, and while I know it's not exactly the same as Samaritans I had a number of phone calls that were complete silence for the whole call because the person couldn't speak or didn't know what to say. Eventually people usually got the courage to talk. It's perfectly fine to just keep calling and crying as many times as you need to until you feel you can talk to someone. Please just try it

Yes OP, people do care.
You only have to look at the bereavement threads to see how much people care.
I have called samaritans twice in my life and TBH didn't find them helpful. It was Mumsnet that saved me, so keep posting because people her do care.
I don't mean to put you off trying to call them because maybe i was just unlucky, but there are other organisations too.
Also try MIND.
I will find a link.

www.mind.org.uk/

Just checking in OP, hope you are ok and you have managed to speak to someone

@allhopeisgone Another person here who thought of you today and wondered how you are doing - we care! How are you doing?

I care OP, lots of us care even though we don't know you. You matter.

I'm checking in on you too, OP. We're thinking of you.

Awww you lot are quite lovely. I'm doing ok I think, feeling a wee bit better today. Last week was the Anniversary of losing my Dad who I loved very much & miss terribly. I know he would want me to keep going & that's what's keeping me going. Thank you, you have no idea what your posts mean to me...

@allhopeisgone I'm so glad to hear you're feeling a little brighter.

Anniversaries are tough but it's brilliant to think about what your loved ones who have passed would want for you. To be happy and healthy and kind to yourself - when I've felt unable to carry on for myself, I've done so for people I know would be devastated if I came to harm. We can be those people for you - please keep posting here if it's helping you.

So many of us have been there and it is absolutely undeniably fucking shit, we won't pretend otherwise - we understand and I'm sure many others like myself would be happy to be the voice we wish we had when we were in the grasp of severe depression.

Thank you AllHope for letting us know you're ok. I'm glad that you're feeling in little brighter and if you need us, we're hear, ready to listen.

Glad things are looking up a bit.

Be kind to yourself