To ask whether you could give up your foremost passion?

[AuldJosey]

In order to maintain your health?

Physical analogy would be no more sky dives as you've already broken 4 limbs.

Think having to not experience anything strong in the emotion department in order to keep you stable. You know that when you deny yourself this, you are better, but the expense to you is huge........

I’d rather give up music and keep my mental health than be so ill that it could shorten my life. You might find that you can adjust quite easily to a life without music. Can you cope with listening to classical music? You can get playlists of certain calming pieces which might be good for you.

You can get playlists of certain calming pieces which might be good for you.

I'd likely die of boredom.

@Jux
The choice is really live fast die young or live safe.
That's just it. My instinct is to go for the former, but my head tells me to aim for the latter.

Op I 100% get you. I have EUPD too.

As much as i hate it, there are songs I cannot listen to. Bands, albums. My most favourite in the whole world. But I can't listen to them. Because I can have the most wonderful day with my kids, my loving partner, everything is wonderful and I'm doing so well, and a specific song will come on, and I'm knocked. For weeks. It resets my brain.

Having EUPD feels like your nerve endings are exposed. So I can feel utterly ecstatic and joyous over something other people go 'ah cool that's nice'. And 'this is too awful. Life is too scary and hard for me to contemplate living. I should kill myself so I don't have to go through the fear and pain of tomorrow'.

I can hear a song and think oh I like this. Then repeatedly listen to it until it becomes so emotionally damaging that it has to go on my banned list.

I don't have any advice as I was diagnosed and fell pregnant shortly after and have spent the last 5 years forcing myself into the role I know I need to be in.

I am happy though.

It doesn't always have to be grey without the emotion. There is a middle ground. I'm not too sure where it is, but I think I'm getting there sometimes.

@mamahanji

Thank you for posting. It's an odd one for me, because I can hold down pretty senior jobs and function pretty well, but at the moment I'm in a bit of a hole. Music for me now is dangerous.

It's a really weird thing EUPD. I'd love to know the science behind it.

I think when music is all I've got, that's when it affects me most.

Ordinarily, I just listen to drown out people on the commute etc.

No-one has ever suspected that I have such a diagnosis as I suppose, 99% of the time I'm 'normal'. Or I can act it.

I HAVE given up most of my passions.

It kills me. If it wasn't for my kids needing me, I wouldn't be here. But that's becoming disabled for you.

Yeah, I would if it were damaging me, and my ability to parent. Mine's yoga and so (I think) makes me a better parent.

I supposedly have EUPD. Music affects me highly. So I monitor what I let myself listen to. I thought I was super rigid in what I could enjoy but actually I frequently ask Alexa to play me music from certain periods or by bands/ singers etc which I don't know. I learn a lot and it's fun.

There's music which helps bring me out of it.

Lol, I doubt yoga is quite what I'm talking about.

Yep. Melodramatic and self aggrandising. Just proving my point. Get all the way over yourself. Your mental health diagnosis does not excuse the shitty attitude you cop with other people.

@FirstAndLastAndAlways
I always say I supposedly have it too! I'm not convinced! To me it's like if you do A, B & C, five times, you've got EUPD. Fuck all seems to be known about it to be honest.

So for e.g. you probably have an addiction and self harm. But you're not going to be considered for the diagnosis unless you do those things. So it's like they lump a lot of damaged individuals together and give it a name.

Why are you even on this thread? Namestheyareachangin

What are you getting out of abusing me?

This is really weird and I'm going to bed. Btw no one has said anything bad...night night ladies x

OP, hide the thread. There are people posting who have absolute no clue about EUPD. Lucky them eh?

The fact you're considering your triggers and seeing the choice in front of you is brilliant. But please hide the thread, you won't get anything out of it now.

MN chose to delete my response to a GF and leave theirs standing. Meh.

Nah OP they've deleted mine too.

Stop stalking my thread.

mate it's a public forum?