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Feeling suicidal

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:09

Not going to do it but feel like it
I'm in bed and tablets I could use are in bathroom so I won't go there but I am fed up of feeling this low

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:10

I don't want to call the Samaritans all I will do is cry down the phone or not be able to talk

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Blondie1984 · 20/04/2019 05:19

I think you can text them now....

myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:22

You can try to text thempolarpig?
You can talk on here, I’m awake

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:22

Dunno

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Someoneonlyyouknow · 20/04/2019 05:23

You can text or email Samaritans (email may take a few hours to reply though). You can also phone and cry if that's what you need. Or say nothing till you're ready, they won't immediately hang up on you.

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:23

Dunno why I feel like this now
Just want to give up and stay in bed but I can't as I have to see people later

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myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:24

Do you want to say anything about how you are feeling, or just talk, to try and get past this moment?

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:27

Just feel so miserable that I'm a failure
My house is a mess because I'm either working in demanding job or can't sleep money is tight and I'm alone

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myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:27

Are you alone? Do you have someone you can wake up to tell how you’re feeling

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:29

Just me in the house so no

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myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:30

Sorry missed post. If the house is a mess it’s because you’re in a demanding job. You can only do what you can

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:31

Yeah I work eleven hour sessions

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myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:31

a failure in whose eyes?

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:32

Mine..my boss. My family. I'm never good enough.

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:33

Can't keep my eyes open now going to try and sleep thank you

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myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:33

Do you feel you have high expectations of yourself? If you’re in a demanding job you must be good st it?

myidentitymycrisis · 20/04/2019 05:34

Good get some sleep

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 05:34

No not really I failed my last two appraisals

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Someoneonlyyouknow · 20/04/2019 08:52

How are you feeling this morning? Stopped posting last night, not because we stopped caring but so you could hopefully get some sleep. I'm wondering how long you have been in this job and has it always been so difficult? Perhaps there is more your boss could/should be doing to support you.

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polarpig · 20/04/2019 09:15

since september at this place, 10 years in other places. it was ok at first but i'm not really good enough to do it. it's my dream job though.
i did get some sleep thank you
i'm not feeling as bad as i was, things are always less awful during the day.

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Orangecake123 · 20/04/2019 20:06

Please contact the charity maytree who offer free stays in london.

Are you having any therapy?

Someoneonlyyouknow · 20/04/2019 23:49

Hi @polar pig, just checking how you are feeling now. What have you done today? I've been pretty lazy (telling myself it was too warm to do much) but will have to catch up with housework tomorrow. When are you back at work - 11 hour sessions sound pretty grim.

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